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Hope Again

2010-09-17T18:02:00.000+08:00

Hope again

by ~RanCor98

Darkness creeping deep within
The thin fragments of reality shattered on a whim
My world crumbles, your face doesn't show a hint
My heart broken, your empty smile reflected in it

The things you say just hurts evermore
The laughs and jibs all hollow and flawed
Am I to wait for a glimpse of hope?
Am I to suffer the unbearable joke

Of you loving me?, of you caring for me?
Of you wanting me?, of you being there for me?
That I am your one and only?
That I matter more than anything?

Tell me what to do from this moment on
For this tragedy is longing and waiting with haste
To tear me asunder, to crush me to pieces
While I hope again and again thereafter

AI.

2008-05-24T01:55:00.002+08:00

::Aaahhh~, the good old days::

David Cook won, haiz, I liked Archuleta better but Cook is good too, very closely matched..

Anyway, after watching the finale, I got reminded about the old days, especially after watching Guru-duno-what's-his-name playing SITAR HERO, lolz..

And these vids are what he reminded me off..

Aaahhh~, the good old days, hehe..

enjoy!

XD!

ciaoz~

new blog skin

2008-04-03T01:55:00.007+08:00

::Vivification::

Haha, I finally did something with my blog,hahha...thx to the help of a special somebody, hehehe..

So since I'm not goin to Australia till June what have I been doing?...Hhhhmmmzzzzz..now this is a hard question...lemme think....ROT!, lolz..

Yea, lotsa CS (counterstrike for all you non-computer-games-people) , alot of bballin, which I'm greatful for (alot of fats to be lost), and most of all, alot of special memories made, hehe..

Have been helping out in the shop alot too, playing cs or chatting all d way there, nothing eventful.

Have been looking through a few pics and found some funny ones and nice ones..enjoy!..

My 1st dance performance, hahaha, I was such a nerd..

OMG!, What was I thinking?!, Shave them off you China Man!!!, haiz..young and foolish, lolz..

Haha, my 1st time organising a camp, hope you peeps liked it..

Eric dgn Khee Wah, tak tau buat aper dua budak ini, beraba-raba kaki bersama-sama, haha..

Haha, this was fun..

So was this trip too, the birth of 'Cha Siew Pau - The expression', hahaha..

LOLZ!, HEY JOE!, my man~ JG,hahaha!, Good Job man!..

Hehehe, a nice event too, except the part where I..I..what did I do again?, I cant seem to remember...XP..

I guess I gotta cut down on the CS alot, I think its gettin to me..

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BOOM!

-Terrorist Win!-

Haha..Silence!, I KKKkkiiiilllllllll YOU!

Man, this animals are fast, but trust me, comfort rating bad, my lil bro nearly got martyr-ed, hehe...

Oh well, I guess thats all for now, hope you enjoyed the pics..

Ciaoz~..

Disclaimer: None of the animals above were harmed during the photoshoot, well, except maybe the big monkey whose nuts nearly got pierced by a lil goat's horn XP!.

2008-03-29T22:14:00.008+08:00

grrrrr. i'm IAIN. the live terrorist.

say it with me...yeeeeeee-aaaa-eeeeen.

silence! i kill you!

revenge is sweeeeeet =)

an awesome day..

2008-02-01T01:10:00.000+08:00

::Breathtaking::

Today was an awesome day..

Sorry, can't put up any details about it, it was just WONDERFUL...

Thank You God.

ciaoz..

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2008-01-08T00:12:00.001+08:00

::Thriving::

Yo ppl!!!..im alive!!!, haha

I like this song by Santana feat. Chad Kroeger - Into the Night..

Will update soon, i hope, haha..

Till then...CIAOZ..

100th post

2007-12-01T22:38:00.001+08:00

boo!

vid

2007-09-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

::Serenity::

Hey, I juz got back from tioman wif the YA yestaday..Had a great time there..anyway, Dominic pass me this vid from Godtube and I think its superb, watch it for urself and be touched!..

Hope you enjoyed d vid..thats all for now..ciaoz..

relieved...

2007-08-29T16:55:00.000+08:00

::Alleviate::

Woah..just had the fright of my life juz now, ushz..ok it was like this..

I was doing my report for tomorrow's presentation since 9am, at about 2pm my com crashed for no reason, restarted by itself and the last time I saved was an hour ago..SHUX!!!..

ok, I calmed myself down and started from where I last saved, so was happily typing away when suddenly at about 4pm the com HANG KEI!!..SHUX!!!..imagine how stress I was already at the time, I was thinking to myself "die die die die die die die die..wait..think of a way to solve it..*can't think of anything*..die die die die die", I had another bout 20+ pages left before the com hang kei and now ushzkalashikidiantaramansintis!!!, nearly double that number of pages left to do!..

I was like super stressed up and like wanna give up adi wen suddenly I received an sms..it was from my lecturer..the presentation is POSTPONED!!!, USHZ!!!, posponed to nxt tuesday!, which gives me extra 5-ish dayz!!!, THANK YOU JESUS!!!, haha!, God is good!!!..

I feel like a difflated balloon now, all the stress juz flowed out of me, I feel so relieved!, God is good, real good!..wahh..haha..well thats all I wanna share for now, ciaoz..

"Back to work, work work.."

ushz...

2007-08-27T09:59:00.000+08:00

::Deluge::

Wow..its end of august already, ushz..haha, time passes by so so quickly man..ok, an update of what has happened to me..

Didnt feel like blogging during the whole of june-july stretch, hehe, lazy I guess, then once august came i had no time to even get decent sleep..had my robot to finish and finals to study for..it was hectic..

In the end my robot came out fine, juz have some small tweaking and beautification left to do before my final project presentation this thursday, not to mention d 70 page report I will have to complete before then, hhhhaaaaiiizzzzzzz..finals was good too, had a combination of a headache, dry cough, and a bad case of flu during then 2nd day of exam, thank God i manage to fin my paper with ease..so far so good I guess..

So now trying to take things easy since I have the time to do so..finally, hehe..currently thinking bout what to do during my long holiday, the longest hol I've ever got in my whole life, so far, hehe..so many things I want and have to do..so leaving it to God la..

Will update more soon, my blog's not dead yet, hehe, though it may appear so..im out for now..ciaoz...

Oh oh!!!, I nearly forgot!, ppl!!!, please visit my youth fellowship's new website!!!, join us!!!, gogogogo!!!!...

www.youthnited.com

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2007-06-30T11:49:00.000+08:00

::Picturesque Memories::

Hey ppl, haha..finally blogger's pms has stopped n here is d update that I promised..haiz, now my blog's become a picture blog, newayz here we go..

-Bang Kok-

Remember dis Jon?, haha, dis was wen both our families had chinese new year dinner together at Bangkok..forgot d restaurant's name adi but man d food was gud...

Saw dis at a souvenier shop..who wud actually buy dis?, a siu keong for a souvenier, lolz!..

OoOoOo..i remember dis very clearly..a whole long counter of bbq roasted BABI!!!, thay hav babi of all kinds man..I was like passing it wen I saw it out of d corner of my eye n i stood there staring at it for like 5 mins, then oni took out my camera, haha...

Now this I remember very well also, haha..broiled leg of pork served wif ham choy, USHZ!!!, n d taste...MAGNIFICENT!!!...im drooling at the memory of it..Hazel!!!, tarpau back for me next time u come back!!!!...

A new idea for d nonsense crew?, lolz..Jon sure remember this wan, haha, everybody was fascinated wen d elephants started to piss n shit while performing, lolz..i'll post dat pics up nxt time la if u all wan, lolz...

And I thought dat Thailand was a backward country, I was wrong, this building is freaking huge n they hav like a few of this all around man..

"Go here to bang sue!", lolz..Bang Sue is a name of a place, haha, no need to worry Pastor Sue, hehe..

Welcome to Chattuchak weekend market (I hope d spelling is rite)..imagine all d stores r cramped up like dis in a segment/cluster of shops..n dis place has 24 clusters..to make it more understandable, we wen walking for 4 hrs n we oni covered 3 clusters..now can u imagine how big d place is?..

Another pic of d market..u see d bamboo poles at d bottom of d pic?, they use dat as their table tops, it is tied together into like blinds then they juz unroll it on to a frame n it becomes their table..so their setting up time is like 2 mins, giler fast..

More of Bangkok sum other time la...haha..

-Random pics-

"OoOoOo, apples..big apples!"....

"Eat big apples!...nyam nyam!, haha"...

My lil fren..lolz, dis pic is abit ham, haha..

Sotong face...

Chut chut mouth, or watever u call it..i hav no idea, haha..

Super grin wif sepet eyes, haha..n after all dis i still say we two dun look alike!..

My family during the renewal of marriage service..like a family protrait..

Father's Day celebration!..

BLUEK!..dats all for now!..

Juz watched transformers yestaday..finally, haha..2 me it was ok oni, nice graphics n it was funny, a nice movie but as a transformers fan it was abit dissapointing, haha..

Oh yea youthz!..watch out for the unveiling of our new youth website!!!, its still under construction now but wait and c, haha..

Well I guess dats all for now..back to my robot building, "robot!, TRANSFORM!!!, muahahaha!!!, hahaha...haha...ha...", dang it didnt work!, hehe..ciaoz..

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2007-06-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

::Cantankerous?::

Well I tried uploading pics for dis update but blogger had pms probs, so no pics this time,hehe...

Hooked on Youth Alive's "Can't Live A Day" now, haha, hearing it very single time im on d com..ok, hhmmmzzzz..hhhhmmmmzzzz..it seems dat i cant think of anything to talk about now, hehe..since blogger pms-ed most of wat i wanna tok about flew out d window, lolz..

A brief report of what's goin on..Youthz is back on track n is looking gud so far, finalising my robot plans 4 this sem, youthz website is currently on its way, doin well in studies..so far, haha..

Wow, im actually kind of boring aren't I, haha..well, i guess dat means i'll do a proper update nxt time la, wen im free n not lazy..n wen blogger doesnt pms, hehe...ciaoz..

New Semester...

2007-05-14T10:38:00.000+08:00

::Disillusionment::

Jz came back frm coll, got my new timetable n my results..abit dissapointed wif them, got 2A's n a B, d B was due to careless mistakes, haiz, missed my chance of getting straight A's for once in my life, haha, guess I cant hav everything, lolz..my timetable is quite ok tho, heavy on thurs but d rest of d dayz I end by 1 n I get wed off, hehe, more time to play bball..

I hav to say I reli enjoyed my recent over-too-soon semester break, haha, played loads of bball n playstation, read lots n lots of novels, oh not to 4get all d movie outings, hehe..aahh, a short overture to wat I hope to be my life in 3-4 months time, hehe, basically FREEDOM!!!!, lolz...

Well, as for d youthz, d leaders hav sat down together n decided to spice things up abit..so youthz, expect more exciting things to happen in yf as well as look 4ward to a brand new youthz website!..plans r being made n ideas hav been popping up, d website server has more or less been confirmed n basically all dats left is naming d website b4 we can continue..

Oh yea, to all youthz dat wan to serve in d yf p&w team, be it as vocals or as musicians, pls b on d look out for d serve forms dat will most prob b handed out dis comin fri..we hav planned training sessions as well as jamming sessions, n 4 d vocals we're gonna implement a mentor kind of method..so if ur interested jz grab d forms n fill it out..

Hav been dealing wif alot of issues within myself, setting my priorities straight, hav been slacking off abit, hehe..thinking bout d future, worrying bout d life yonder, haha, worrying 2 much, lolz..lookin 4ward to d family camp tho, haha, im sure we're gonna hav loads of fun, crazyness, and great experiences of God's presence..haha, cant wait..

Well, I guess dats all 4 now..ciaoz..

*I guess my blog's a little dead..ok, VERY dead, haha..so 4 ur viewing pleasure:*

"In another episode of 'when birds ATTACKS'..ouch, haha"

perplexed

2007-04-17T13:48:00.000+08:00

::Perplexed::

It was a beautiful weekend leading to d wedding renewal ceremony..busy preparations, long practice sessions, the anticipation, the excitement, the feeling that things wud go well..until..the crack, hehe..i'm still abit down coz of dat blunder, d ceremony experience juz wen downhill then..feeling frustrated n disappointed with myself, but i'm slowly purging all of these, picking myself up..pls, i do not need any consolation now, its a lesson i've gotta learn..

Juz fin another novel yestaday..got another to go, but definately after my finals..which is like on thurs, lolz..well i can handle them, no probz..i think, hehe..

D youth alive invitation hasnt been confirmed yet, but it seems dat we might play for d upcomin sj cf rally too..its all still very vague, so dont keep ur hopes too high, hehe..

Well, since sun i've been feeling confused?, i dunno, n its not only coz of the crack..guess i've juz gotta leave things up to Him again..

Youthz!!!, there will b a special screening of a movie this fri called "Facing The Giants"..Invite ur Frens!!!..

Nuthin else to say now, so ciaoz..

wat???...

2007-04-09T09:26:00.000+08:00

::Flash Recollections::

D wonders of an aching body, makes u aware of every movement, reminding u dat ur alive, lolz..had a whole morn of bball on sat, a 2 hour squash session n 2 hours of bball session yestaday, yupz, back 2 back..tiring but definately exhilarating, reli missed playing like dis..bball skills slowly returning, haha..

Robot?, wat robot?..haha, d robot project wen well, d robot worked, thank God, but it seriously needs more improvement..need a more powerful motor, higher power supply, and better sensors..so sori Jon, cant do d robot demo anytime soon, lolz..am so glad dat its over, for now at least, taking it easy now, tho my finals is nxt 2 weeks, hehe..

Well, d wedding renewal ceremony is dis Sun, dat means I oni hav like less than a week more to practise 2 songs, yea added 1 more, a quartet consisting of Jade, Mien, Citrine n me..singing "love will be our home" by Sandi Patti..singing d tenor part, I reli reli reli dun like parts, lolz..my mom was so hyped about d wedding renewal ceremony, not surprising, dat she wen on a shopping's spree yestaday, not kidding..after church she wen straight away wif an. Mary Loh to go shop for her outfit, then it was another session at nite wif my sisters to get their new dresses..n she bought back a coat for me..I tried it on, and I had to admit..I look gud, lolz..so guess my outfit / uniform for d nite is settled..

guess it will be a busy week, real busy, wif d wedding renewal, extra classes, smsu's easter rally, full dress rehearsal on fri nite, n of course, Pay Less's Bookstore's warehouse sale!, haha, up 2 50% off, siokz..well, gonna see a very gud fren off mine off soon, he's goin back to UK..haiz, real lerthargic now, haha, ciaoz...

???...

2007-04-03T18:08:00.000+08:00

::Mad Scientist or Evil Genius?::

Robot progress : 85%

D presentation / Exhibition is 2MORO!!!..n my current progress on d robot is stated above, USHZ!!!..its gonna b a LLLLllllooooonnnnnggggg night, haha..

Not much time to blog all dat I wan to say now..well, d song for d marriage renewal next week is coming out well, can finally reach it, lolz..it's a real nice song, "go there with You" by Steven Curtis Chapman, for those who wan to noe..managed to convince d ppl in charge dat I dun need to wear a choir robe, lolz..

Wen for steamboat buffet last sun wif all, well almost all, my cell group members and a few other ppl who cudnt resist steamboat buffet, haha..wonderful time of fellowship, stayed there from 6pm till 10.30 pm, so u cud imagine d amount of food we ate, lolz..mmm, chicken wings, hehe..it was fun, shud do this kind of things more often, might put on a little, ok alot more weight but its worth it, lolz...

Ps Dennis practically anounced 2 d whole yf n ya last fri bout d invite from Ps. Brian Ranjan to play for Youth Alive..abit scared and intimidated bout d prospect of 500-1K+, or maybe even more, of ppl in front of me, tho d mischevious part of me is considering crowd surfing, lolz..juz to make things clear, Ps Brian wanted d whole band to go, not juz me, juz thought I hav to clarify dat coz Ps Dennis made it sound dat Ps Brian called me alone..dat how it sounded to me at least..its not confirmed yet tho, so juz gotta pray dat it happens if God is willing n also for strength, boldness, n courage if it actually does happen, dun wanna freeze up on stage, lolz....

dats all for now, ciaoz...

jiwang...

2007-03-08T16:15:00.000+08:00

::Justified In Worship, Adulation of a Noteworthy God::
=JIWANG..lolz..

Juz finish my midterm for my Introduction to Robotics subject..it was ok, not easy not dat challenging as well..hope I do well, hehe..pondering on the risk of upgrading the firmware of my psp from 3.02 OE-B to 3.03 OE-B..

HAAAAIIIIIZZZZZZ!!!!!, 19 adi..OLDDDD!!!, lolz..soon I will be in my twenteens, haha..Had an ok B'day, wif a card, money and 2 new novels to lift my spirits, hehe..but abit sad now, coz I've already finish 5 of my 6 new novels, in like 2 weeks, wanna read more, lolz...

Bangkok!, haha..will post about it after camp la, wen I've got d time and patience to upload all d pics, hehe..

Tasks ahead of me..1) fin my robots, 2) prac d song for d marriage seminar, 3) read more novels, hehe, and 4) put on some weight, yea not joking..I've been getting skinny-er n d muscle bulk is dissipating, I can see my rib cage!!!, dats not gud..I think its coz of d being sick n d lack of appetite..so gotta eat more!, haha, and also start playing more bball again..

dats all for now I guess..ciaoz..

Oh yea..THX 2 all d ppl who wished me on my b'day!!!, really appreciate it, haha..

bangkok...

2007-02-16T15:20:00.000+08:00

::Raging Tempest::

Woahh, thats fast..its already chinese new year man..Alot of things to do, so little time, haha typical..gonna go to Bangkok 2moro till wed, mite meet Jon up there, he left 2day..well, nothing much to say, except that I've juz recovered from a sorethroat, headache and muscle aches throughout my body..managed 2 finalize my circuit design for my project and to buy all I need for d circuitry, rm200 worth of components, cipanz, which leaves me oni 1 month to put it all 2gether, shux..

Oh yea, n 4 all d yf ppl our campsite has been changed, its no longer Ulu Yam, it has been changed to Institut Putra in Melaka..which means no more river, sobs..but, there is a bball court there, muahahaha, siokz..more details will b up on d ushz site soon..

Finally, Happy Chinese New Year, Gong Xi Fa Cai, Xing Nian Kuai Le (haha, dis one I dunno how to spell n i 4gotten d hokkien version also, haiz), to everyone out there..n ppl d nxt thing I'm gonna ask u is d most important thing...

WHERE IS MY ANG PAUs????!!!, Ang Pau Gia Lai!!!!, LOLZZZZZ...ciaoz..

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2007-02-06T12:35:00.000+08:00

::Rushing Ambience::

A week has pass, n d pressures piles up, who knew A.I was dat complex, well I did, lolz..cari maut sendiri, lolz..haha, gotta cope..wen to c d campsite 4 yf camp '07 on sun after CED and it was cun, hehe..

Cax, Lt, Jess, Ee Leen, Shen Yi, an SL, Unc Chew, n of course myself, took d van n wen on a roadtrip..d trip was fun, wif fei-loship and makanz till we started c-ing a huge lake and waterfalls along d way which made us, or maybe juz me, haha, excited..wen through windy roads, over glorious hills, through lush forests, n thin roads to finally reach amberstone campsite, haha..

D 1st thing I wanted to c was d river..2 me it was great la, d water cold, d water fast but not raging, n d best of all a guarantee from d ppl there dat d river does not hav leeches, haha..a surprising thing was dat d ppl there told me they cud actually block up d mini dam that they build below d bridge to make d water level rise..so, [water level rising] = [better swimming] + [more fun] + [more havoc!!!, in a way], lolz..

Nxt we wen to c d lodging, it was actually gud..definately better than Broga camp '04 man..d toilets tho was abit ulu..so ppl guess u'll hav to "suffer" abit la, NOT, 2 me it was sufficient, but sum ppl think its too bad?, haha, u'll noe wen u get there la, u city kids, haha..tho there was dat toilet in d corner of d campsite which is very isolated, dirty, smelly n had a leech, lolz, but its gud, d lady told us dat d cleaning ppl were on hol, so its dirty n smelly now..d gurls were like woarrgghh, but 2 me it was ok, guys I guess, lolz, n I trust d lady wen she said dat d ppl were on leave, I think..hehe..

We didnt get to c d waterfall n d trekking path coz to get to d waterfall we hav to trek there n d hall is big, abit bigger than peacehaven's hall during yf camp '05..overall I think its a gud campsite, sure its 2 close 2 mother nature for sum ppl but its a gud campsite..wif many ways to torture ppl, i mean hav fun, hehe, if we put our minds to it..if only I had this campsite wen I was camp commandant, lolz..ciaoz

Of Robots..

2007-01-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

::Robotic Malfunction::

Jz managed 2 fix my com 20 mins ago, yes AGAIN, cipanz..with d help of Jon it turned out well n easy, thx man..

Ok dis sem I hav to build a robot, 4 an exhibition, which determines my coursework marks..basically d idea is like dis, my lecturer is planning to hv an exhibition of his students individual work in various fields like electronics, mechanics n in my case, robotics..

Each of us will hv 2 set up individual booths wif our creations, flaunt them, attract ppl n basically try to "sell" our projects in a way..coz d way 2 score 4 your coursework marks is 2 make ppl like your creation so much dat they will vote 4 you..n obviously d person wif d most votes will score d full marks, which is 45% of our total percentage!!!..cipanz!!!, haha..

So went 2 present my proposal of my robot 2 my lecturer 2day n guess wat?, my project wasnt difficult enough, so i'll hv 2 buff it up..d idea was to create 2 combat robots that d voters cud fight each other wif, which is controlled by a cable remote..but now i'll hav to change it 2 2 robots dat will fight each other on their own using A.I, which is fine except dat d coding will be a hassle and d circuitry, which is mainly finding a way 2 fix d sensors and the transducers needed 2 create d A.I as well as 2 make d robot immobile once it loses, would be like omg, lolz..

D best part is I've oni got 2 months to create both d robots, haha..it will be very tight, ushzkala..it will b fun, kua, haha..guess d mad scientist within has to come out n take over soon, lolz..i mean, Mmuahahahaha..well dats all I've got to say now.."Igor!, grab d translucinator, d halucifier n d transmorgraficationometer, we're gonna make sumthing live!!!, to d lab!!!"..LOLZ, ciaoz..

A new year

2007-01-29T12:12:00.000+08:00

::Surreal::

Yupz im finally back on9, juz managed to fix my connection probz 30 mins ago..Hav been doin abit of thinkin these past few dayz, im even surprised i hav d time, apart from d rushing around 4 d youthz as well as d yf camp `07, life seems to significantly slow down 4 me..maybe its bcoz of my sem timetable, haha..

Well, d fact of d matter is dat if everything turns out right, dis year mite b my last year here, in malaysia, which is starting to get to me, hehe..since d move to penang it seems dat i will hav to move to a new enviroment every 3-5 years, haha, stayed in penang for 3 years, here for another 4 including this year, n about another what 4-5 in aussie b4 i come back?..haiz...

God's plan?, i dunno..d prospect of me living on my own in a diff country, society, n on alien food is kinda scary but i guess its time..gonna b 19 dis year, aaahhhh d agony lolz, n 20 nxt year, d big "2"-"0"..guess i cant stay wif my parents for my whole life, holding on to life d way i want it while everybody else moves on..but yea, it still scares me n worries me..

Gonna give my all again 4 d youthz dis year, gotta find my so called "heir" or "successor" soon, "Lord" Iain bluek, lolz..yea, its gonna b a year to remember, a year to look forward to, a year to be thankful for..dis i reli hope..

`07, d perfect num, God's num..hehe, guess we'll juz hav to c wat happens huhh???...ciaoz...

Revived?..

2007-01-11T13:56:00.000+08:00

::Revived?::

Not as in my blog ok?..haha..a start of a new year, a start of something new (now where did I heard dat b4???, lolz), a start of a bright future, a start of a revolution..izit enuf to juz get fired up 4 a season, then dying down, n then getting fired up again by sum rally or camp or conference?..izit ok 2 say "God I'm gonna do this for U, do dat 4 U, change myself, or even go out into the world n tell the world that Jesus lives!!!..BUT, only after my tuition classes, after my piano lessons, after my 'hang kai' sessions, after I watch this show, or that drama/anime series, after I play bball or football or foosball" ???..NO..so wats d point of being fired up again n again wen all we r doing is repeating the same old mistakes?, asking for the same old things?, asking for His touch n refreshing wen clearly he has already given it 2 us???..ppl, wat is the difference between a rally, a camp, a normal youth fellowship meeting?..numbers?, deco?, lights n radical music?..No, there is NO diff..if God can move in rallies and conferences and in camps, why cant He move in normal yf meetings?..izit His fault??..u shud noe d ans to dat 1, haha..obviously NOT..ppl, we need to get our bearings rite..if we wanna c change in our yf, if we wanna c it grow both spiritually and physically in numbers we hav to start out rite..a revolution can oni start wen all r united, both in aim n in determination..how much do u wan 2 c God move in our meetings?, how much do u wan to c our yf grow?, How much do u wan to be apart of this revolution???..It's up 2 u..n me..appplies to me also, hehe..juz felt like saying this, I'm abit shocked dat I wrote this as well, sound abit like a preaching, lolz..oh well, wat's Ur stand???..ciaoz..

reminesence

2006-12-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

Conjecture::

Its that time of the year again, EXAMS!!! during December!!!, 3 years in a row!!!, which means..its the 3rd Planetshakers Conference I missed!!!..haiz, izit ur will God???, lolz..fell sick again 2day, massive flu attack, so bad till water dripping out of my nose..and the best part was I had an assignment to pass up 2day n I still had 2 graphs and a disscusion report left to do..so was dripping my way through d 2 hours of graph drawing and report writing, TORTUROUS, n I was kinda blurz n slpy adi coz of d medication I took..so now all's left before my freedom is hhhmmmzzz, lets see..another assignment which the teacher assigned to us oni YESTADAY and d dateline is on MON, studying for my finals, recording for rally, choosing songs for sun worship, work to do for the rally fundraiser, the work for the rally itself, the LPC to attend, and the current priority..GETTING WELL, hahaha..well dat one hav to leave it to God la..haha, ciaoz..

moment's sojourn..

2006-11-16T18:46:00.000+08:00

hehe, havin a nice time squinting ppl?..lolz..decided to change my layout and dis was all dat i cud find in like 10 mins dat was more suited to my liking..i dun like d dear diary thing tho, but d colour and d design is cun, cant help d font size tho, haha, lazy to change..hearing d lastest hillsongs london album - Jesus Is, not bad..got seriously tons of work to do man..2 assignments to hand up, exams ever nearing, Rally '07, and d new leadership team for yf..at the end i had to decline my fren's invite to sing a duet wif his sister for his other sister's wedding, feeling kinda bad, he seemed so excited..she wanted to sing a nice song also, d wedding song which d two main characters sang in Anastacia d movie..finally finished d sixth book of the Wheel of Time series by Robert Jordan, can't wait to start d next installation, not to mention d other 2 books in the series as well as d 3rd last book of the Left Behind series dat is on my table staring at me, haha..control urself iain, gotta study remember?,... remember???..lolz..i guess dis year's end year hols r gonna past by very fast wif all d things planned..oh well, all in your will God..cant wait till exams r over, then straight to d cinema to watch ERAGON!!!, ushzkalashikidiantara, can't wait..haha..ciaoz...

assiduous and exasperated..hehe..

2006-11-03T11:05:00.000+08:00

waiting for my class to start now..hehe..Hoooo~~..alot of stuff to do this few weeks..studies, planning for yf nxt year, planning for rally '07, fund-raisers, christmas, videos, music practises as well as a song to write 4 rally promo..hahhha,siok-ness..real busy and occupied running here and there but thank God 4 His strength and perserverence..now my modem got ushz by lightning so cant on9 also so i guess He wants me to concerntrate on work..hehe..haiz..i guess enuf of crapping here adi, gotta go class liaozzz....ciaozzz...

Tired...

2006-10-16T11:22:00.000+08:00

I guess this is a fact that we can all agree to..as we grow older we get tired more often..haiz..well, juz feeling kinda numb and like in a trance now..like wen u slp 2 much but still feel that u need more slp..mind floating, haha..datelines to meet, studies to fulfill, plans to make, and more fun to gain, all happening in this end year..but I dun feel dat excited anymore, juz wanting to read my novels quietly, maybe goin to d beach again, and composing d lyrics for d song dat Jon came out for d rally promo..had summore funny dreams again, haha, but nah, u guys dun need to noe..lolz..

staring out the window at the sky beyond,
at the shades of blue and white above,
so serene, tranquil, and still inside,
wishing it would always stay this way for all time.

Hahaha, I've tot about it and I agree dat I mite look abit lala in my contacts and new haircut, lolz, BUT 'I don't care wat they say about me it alrite, its alrite', ' and I dun care wat they think about me it s alrite, they'll get it one day', 'All day, all day now, all day'...LoooLz..hahhha ciaoz...

Youthz Rally Poll..

2006-10-09T15:33:00.000+08:00

Yo 4 all u ppl out there who reads my blog, apparently there izin alot of ppl but NVM, hahha, pls go to the link below and vote for a theme for my church's youth rally nxt year...eventhough ur not from my church or not even a christian but juz vote, we need more feedback...thx ppl!!!...

http://fgausjyfrally.blogspot.com/

yo...

2006-10-04T11:28:00.000+08:00

these few weeks hav been tough for alot of us..with exams, relationship problems, and even deaths of family members..i've never heard of this much funerals in a span of two weeks, funny cases of deaths in the newspapers happening more frequently..death huhh???..hav u ever tot about it???..i noe i hav..i started thinkin about it ever since i was std 3, on night i juz started crying wondering wat's gonna happen once we die..will we juz evaporate leaving our cold bodies to rot in the earth???, will we be remembered as ourselves by ppl???, or will we juz remain as a memory ever fading with time..tok about deep huhh for a std 3 kid..hehe..i often wonder how would it be like to be in other ppl's shoes, ppl whose loved ones hav left this world whether suddenly or slowly..i guess i'm maybe juz bracing myself for my turn wen it comes..in a funeral there is always eulogies (dun mind d spelling, im not sure how to spell it), and always i wonder wat would ppl say about me wen i leave, will it be gud???, or will it be bad???..haha, i guess i wudnt noe..hhhhaaaaiiiizzzz, i guess i muz b in one of those moods again, hehe..thinking 2 much..

One life to live,
Of love and trust,
One life to give,
To God above.

Tears and joy,
Laughter and pain,
All contained,
In this life He gave.

Live to the fullest,
No regrets and shame,
Till to the end,
Of our days.

-ciaoz-

The Dream and the thought...

2006-08-10T13:04:00.000+08:00

A dream I had..

The Voice:

Walking in a crowd all alone,
Watching and hearing nothing at all,
Spacing out in to myself,
The surroundings fading into itself.

Thinking how I've become this way,
Looking back for things misplaced,
Wondering why it turned out this way,
All reality distorted and shattered.

Then I looked up when I heard a voice calling me,
A voice I recognize deep within me,
The voice that matters most to me,
I turn looking, searching for the One who called me.

Looking around, I searched and found,
The One who called, the One whose voice I love,
Staring in disbelief, in doubt and in surprise,
Not knowing how, when, what or why.

Happiness engulfs my entire being,
Joy erupts from deep within me,
Memories of times past fill me,
Finally I've found my love standing right infront of me.

Then suddenly the world around me starts to shake,
My love starts fading, nothing remain,
My heart cries, tears flowing down my face,
But only echoes of the voice I love remains.

Something I thought about..

Love...:

My heart can take no more of this,
This feeling, this emotion, this uncertainty,
Resting deep within my soul unwavering,
Not seeming to go away or lessening.

No one really understands it,
Different interpretations and revelations,
A mystery to all, a puzzle unsolved,
A thing yet to be resolved.

A word that describes all,
A word that unites all,
A word that brings forth life,
A word that can destroy lives.

A thing that makes people blind,
A thing that messes with minds,
Yet one thing's for sure, without a doubt,
That love comes through everytime.

Love is kind, love is patient,
Love is strong, love is unexplainable,
Love is heavy yet divine,
Love is wonderful all the time.

To be loved is one thing,
To love is another,
Yet love comes both ways,
Only then can true love take place.

One thing I learnt at TSF camp that reli struck me is dat love is the result of true understanding..not knowledge..we said it so many times dat God is Love, yet we do not reli understand wat it means..God is Love..Love will find a way, or make a way..indirectly we're saying dat God will make a way no matter wat happens..there may be a million or in human's case, 6 billion other "fishes" out there..but if there is only ONE other that is the same species as you, how???..a shark does not pair up wif a whale neither does a eel pair up with a dolphin..think about it..ppl nowadayz couple up juz like dat, not to mention breaking up at a snap of a finger..I cant understand how they do it, reli..its like they hav metal hearts or sumthing, wen break adi can juz melt and re-shape it back again..haiz, haha..I guess I am thinking abit 2 much..nyanyuk adi, lolz..OH YEA!!!..

Happy Birthday CAXTON!!!..hahha..

ps: 2 those who do not noe wat does nyanyuk mean, it actually means blurz..hahha, ciaoz..

...

2006-08-08T18:37:00.000+08:00

haha, quite lazy to blog nowadayz..hhhmmm..ok..so tsf camp was a blast, the presence of God was reli overwhelming..God moved in so many ways in d camp, and you could reli feel Him there..we had lots of fun there performing and being part of d camp..was practically hibernating after d camp, was so tired, lolz..well..my finals is nxt week, so d nerd mode button is activated once again, haha..with dat I've got d youth drama for d 10th anniversary, d banner march pass, and worship leading on d 10th anniversary itself, to do..ushz..lotsa things to do..juz got hillsongs' mighty to save album..it was like calling to me wen i walked in salvation, lolz, "Iain, I'm here..buy me..BUY ME!!!.."..LOLZ , well I couldnt resist..so now pokai..lolz..n 2day I finally managed to find d nxt book from d left behind series, which I was like searching for about a year liao..muahahaha..nothing much happened..or maybe juz to blurz to notice..haha.."My God is mighty to save, He is mighty to save..."..hehe..ciaoz

The awaited weekend...

2006-07-28T10:16:00.000+08:00

YEA MAN!!!..haha, yupz this weekend is d awaited n also dreaded weekend for me, hehe..Tsf camp is starting 2day!!!..dis week alone God has proven Himself faithful and true in my life..on sun after songleading on sun rite I came down with flu, sorethroat and headache, was worried coz like dis week is d week where we had to perform n like if I cant sing at all, all d prac n stuff will b wasted..so like prayed very hard throughout d week, even had a test on tuesday, peningz d whole way..but God came thru for me, not onli did I managed to complete every question in my test, my voice came back, every sickness is gone, and after my own prac yestaday nite I think my voice can go even higher now..haha..oh yea, another test paper came back n I got 9.3/10..wahahahha, thank U Jesus..another wierd thing happened this week, my coll cf president came to me on wed n like said dat his younger sister would like to sing a duet with me for his elder sisters wedding, so he asked me whether am I free anot..walau, i was shocked man..it seems also dat his younger sister is so gud dat she actually made a record deal b4..hahha, I told him I dun feel layak 2 sing at a wedding yet but I'll think about it..wahh, from song leader to a wedding singer???..lolz..very excited now bout camp, I juz noe God is gonna do sumthing great in this camp, if not the enemy wudnt plague d tsf team wif so many obstacles to block us from goin, injuries, sicknesses, clashed exam dates, etc..I juz wanna thank everyone who prayed for me and for d tsf team as well as d camp itself..YEA MAN!!!, We're gonna USHZ kau ppl at d camp, LOLZ..ciaoz..

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2006-07-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

Finally i updated..hehe..well nothing much goin on around me..not actually feeling right, tired maybe..i dunno..everything seems to bored me easily, except maybe spacing out into space..lolz, time past quickly dat way..bball is not wat it use to be anymore, getting bored of anime, rarely go online anymore other than to check my downloads..kinda looking forward to d TSF Camp on d 28th..but well, sorta like numb now, life's becoming a routine, in out in out, nothing ever changes..even missed d world cup semis' and d final itself coz wasn't dat interested anymore..yupz..tired maybe..i guess i juz hav to wait for God's refreshing to come..hhmmzz..oh, i did went to Doulos yestaday and bought bout 5 books..got more books to finish..d book dat i reli wan to fin out of the 5 is d book which studies d book of revelations, revealing all d hidden meanings found there..bout d last days of course..wen i fin i will pass it round la, since alot of youthz r interested in this topic..well, dats all i guess..ciaoz..

Peningz....

2006-06-13T16:37:00.000+08:00

Wwooo...the stars they r so pretty and shiny...swirling round n round my head...lolz..hahha, not dat bad yet but getting closer...peningz wif maths, took 3 heavy maths based subjects this sem, so smart...all d integration, differentiation, exponentials, ln's, forces, trigonometry, angles n math laws r getting to me...I even dream of solving equations sumtimes...not joking...haiz...did well in my tests tho, so i guess i juz gotta keep this up till my finals in august...shikidiantaramasantos!!!...HHHOOOO!!!!...until then, anyone got any aspirin to spare???...ciaoz...

As time passes by...

2006-06-05T11:25:00.000+08:00

Wow..its already june liao..haiz, how time flys by..at this rate I'll b waking up 1 day wondering why my hands r wrinkled n why my stomach n muscles r sagging, lolz..scary..lotsa things happen since d last time I blogged, lotsa things dat made me ponder on issues n stands dat I hav of life, sex and love..happy tho dat wat stands I already had was d right ones n dat wat I'm doin rite now is d right thing to do, tho it may b hard..praying for strength each day, for peace and the will to perservere, but God seems to b oni giving me strength..guess some things I juz hav to go through by myself..another tiring but fun weekend passed, haha..real tiring..on fri, wen to play squash at 2.30pm wif kross, Lt and tM..it was a laugh, seriously, lolz..tM was tired out not bcoz she ran alot but bcoz she was laughing till her stomach ached..haha, shud hav recorded how she n Lt played n post it up on youtube, sure laku wan, lolz..so played until 6pm lidat..kau tired..then we bathed at d club n wen on to pyramid to eat n watch movie..ate pizza, mmm, n wen to c the benchwarmers..d movie was seriously funny man, laugh non-stop, until choke summore, haha..then sent tM back to her house, she dun even noe exactly where her house is, lolz..then wen yumcha at ss14 4 awhile den wen back home..d nxt day I wen 4 a bball game wif my old classmates, played 5 5v5 matches from 8-10.30am, WOOHOO!!!..surprisingly I didnt experience any chao kans,despite d fact dat I didnt play bball 4 3 weeks liao n d tiring squash matches yestaday sorta wore me out adi, muahahahaha...managed to win 4 out of d 5 matches, d last match lost by oni a point, cipanz..wen back home, bathe then wen to jaga shop 4 awhile..walked back home n fainted on d bed for awhile..woke up, bathe again n go ready coz my family n I decided to go for d youth alive night concert session at glad tidings pj...but b4 that wen to lotus in pj for banana leaf, haha..d journey to gt was a adventure by itself man..my mom said dat she knew where gt was, so we juz like sat in d car not bothering..well we did reach gt, but i was wondering to myself y was gt so small?, hmmz..so parked d car inside n wondered as well y wasnt there alot of cars?..then we searched for d entrance, cudnt find it so we asked around..found out dat dis gt is d CHINESE service wan..SHIKIDI!!!..no wonder so small n no ppl around wan..so asked directions to d other gt building n rushed there juz in time for d concert, phew..well had a cun time of praise n worship, they played alot of new hillsongs songs n ONLY hillsongs songs, haha..all in all d band was cun, tho d drummer had abit of problems keeping d beat, d vocalists was cun wif juwita suwito as d main gurl vocal, but in my opinion d guys were sucky, alot of out-of-tune moments n all sang too safe or too low..but all in all they were great, didnt jump at all coz I was 2 full n my thighs n calves were pulling kau kau, haha..d speaker was great, ps pam steward, powerful, fun n funny rolled all in one, n her testimonies of wat she experienced n of wat she saw was out of this world, mighty n powerful woman of God..hope I can c n experience at least half of wat she has..at the end I finally experience d thing dat I was waiting for to happen..my leg chao kan while walking out of gt, lolz..then wen home, n zzz at 12.30am..next day as usual wen for 1st service, makanz at maju n got tempted by kross to go 4 another session of squash, but my body was shouting NNNNNOOoooooo!!!, haha..at nite, wen to parade wif my family, had wonderful family time..bought a new jacket, squash racket grip n ball..haha, n of course wen back n KO'ed till morn...later at 2pm got test, anologue electronics, 2moro got maths test n wed got engineering mechanics test..haiz..[ presses a button].." NERD MODE ACTIVATED"..lolz...ciaoz...

A long long weekend...lolz

2006-05-15T11:02:00.000+08:00

Yupz it was a LLLLlllllllooooooooonnnnnnnggggg weekend...on fri morning reached church at 10am, waited 4 awhile 4 d rest to come, discussed sum stuff then we went 4 a last min shopping trip n lunch..d main item dat we had to buy was balloons n maggi mee, so we went to d borong market opposite giant..no maggi mee..cipanz..so ended up goin to giant to get stuff..got d maggi but got no balloons wor, so had to go to carrefour, we bought balloons there for camp d last time..wen there n found out sumthing..d balloons were sold out i think, it juz wasnt there, shikidi!!!..so we rushed over to parade to toys r'us to get d balloons..then wen n tarpau mc D's to eat n rushed back to church 4 summore preperations..did all this n about 1 n a half hours, rushed giler...came back n finished up our lunch then d preperations started, jon n me started filling up d water balloons for d war game downstairs, we had bout 200+ balloons 2 fill, haha, siokness, was later helped by zX...wen n look at the site of the war game wif cX n Lt, shikidi they really wan to play it in d swamp, walau...so chose the "bases" n rushed back to fin other preps, at that time it was already 2.40pm, cipanz, got so much things to do still...printed stuff, photostated stuff, made d mashmallows, played wif a wierd balloon, lolz..n managed 2 start on time 4 d briefing, thk God...told them sum rules, n started wif the icebreakers, they had fun i think, haha..managed to find out sum stuff bout d youths dat I didnt noe..then we wen on to d 'hands, head, fingers n legs' game..haha, Tze En n me we saying dat it was super fun being at d sidelines watching them doin it, sufferring basically, lolz..had to stop d game coz a few ppl chau kan at various places adi, haha...we moved on to d wierdest game I myself has ever played, d 'swinging stocking' game, lolz ( details in shen yi's blog)..hav loads of laughs, practically everybody was rolling around d floor laughing, lolz..n it was gud coz everyone participated even tho it was reli embarassing, haha..vids on d way!!!, lolz...then we play d 'choc river' game, managed to c how d different groups work together to cross d river..all using diff methods of crossing, great ideas..then we moved on to d water ballon war game, it was d same as d camp but wif 2 new rules, was more balanced dat way..was super fun watching them play, took vids n pics, n laugh kau kau wen kT's slippers got eaten by d swamp of doom, lolz, actually it was bcoz his slippers got stuck sumwhere under d mud till cant find, haha, jon nearly suffered d same tragedy...after 2 teams got 'conquered' we decided dat we were tired of d game so we moved on to d area outside of church where we had a free 4 all bombing session, i think we still had bout 100+ balloons, so had a fun time splashing ppl, haiz, didnt managed to escape this time, haha...then we cleaned up n wen to bathe + makanz...then got ready 4 normal yf session, everyone was pumped up after d afternoon session, all jumping n praising God, cun cun..dn we had ps Victor Gonzales @ santoz speak to us, he brought a band wif him as well, cun cun, they played majesty n saturate, God was moving mightily dat nite, wonderful time of worship, prayer n ministering...then we broke off for makanz n b'day celebrations for d Jan-May ppl..while the rest makanz, cX, xZ, zX, kT, jon, Lt n me got ready d "bonfire" 4 our campfire session, then we let them in n started dancing around it, haha, sidewayz as crazy as ever, d youthz also joined in 4 d 1st to songs then stopped, haha, guessed d fatigue finally got to them..then we prayed n worship 4 awhile..next was d fga usj graffitti game, kT's group (d mighty ducks) were owning in dat game, haha...then we broke off to slp..we all wen to slp early n everyone had beautiful dreams...YEA RITE!!!...haha, sum ppl wen to slp while Lt, kT, xZ, kross, Tze En n me decided to hav a midnight exercise session of ping pong at 3am, haha, everyone was mabukz man, all laughing n playing like fools, lolz..wen to sleep at 3.45am, prac didnt slp, got bitten by God knows wat in my slp n ws shivering kau kau, haha..heard there was buaya attacks during d nite also, gotta observe kau kau from now...woke up at 7.30 by my own alarm, turned it off n wen back to slp, oni to b woken up again by "bang bang bling bling bong bong" crazy frog alarm, cipanz...managed to go slp again oni to be woken up again by voices saying "OOOoohhhh!!!, this one is Iain...", sweat man..then another voice saying "ei?, I tot Iain was over there???.."..cudnt tahan adi, i straight away sat up n said "that fella there is xZ not me la.." then i fell back to slp...cipanz young kids..after awhile i cudnt tahan d shivering adi, woke up n wen to brush teeth...then played ping pong 4 awhile to warm myself up n wen to change + makanz...then at 9.30am we splited up n did devotion + prayed 4 various prayer items..then it was d debreifing session + testimonies, got sum gud feedback..then it was d photosession...after all that a bout 16 of us wen makanz at maju then wen back to church 4 d mom's day rehearsal, d p&w, skid, tambourine and decorations..fin oni at bout 5.30pm...cipanz, dat time we all walking zombies adi...wen back home, bathed n fainted on the bed...woke up 4 dinner,search 4 my skool uniform n went back to my K.O session at 11pm...woke up at 6.15am d nxt day, got ready n rushed to kT house, wen to church in our skool uniform, haha..had a wonderful time of praise n worship as well as d other performances, cun cun, wen 4 raub mission trip meeting then 2nd service..reached home at 1.30pm n K.O till 3.30pm, woke up coz hungry, haha, ate a little bit then wenback to sleep till 5.30pm..got up 2 get ready 4 dinner n wen to sakae' sushi, sat in a revolving table, was fun at 1st but after 45 mins it was getting irritating, haiz...saw Jia Wei, Yi wei n family there as well..then wen to mph 4 bout an hour, looking at books, bought a new cd, then wen home..watched abit of anime n read manga then K.O..haiz, super long man this post..well at least I had alot of fun this wekend, cant wait 4 nxt week when we go to raub...BABI HUTANZ BABI HUTANZ, if dun hav, DURIANZ DURIANZ, haha, lolz...ciaoz...

Of prophecies n dreams..

2006-05-09T09:56:00.000+08:00

Hav been thinking much now..thinkin of wat to do n how to do it..thinkin wat did the prophecy dat was said upon my life on wed meant, how it is goin to come to pass n wat is my role after it comes to pass..my parents r reli asking me to seek God n to heed this prophecy, advising me to look into myself n fix the wrongs in my life..but Lord let Your will be done..had another of those dreams yestaday nite, dreams dat r super real, bringing a message, a warning..asking God if its from Him, asking God if I shud heed it..afraid I am in wats to come, this feeling, this certainty dat I hav bout things is starting to scare me..many of my dreams came to pass, many prophecies heard compliments n connects wif the others, like a jigsaw puzzle..seeking answers, seeking peace, seeking strengh to go through all this..

My hols..

2006-05-06T15:31:00.000+08:00

Wahh...love the hols...cant get enuf of it tho coz its ending..NNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...haiz, can do nuts about it also..well, quite content wif all d hard work dat i managed to acheive during this hols..I managed to complete two rpg video games, read bout 100 books of comics more or less, finished 5 novels, ate another two whole packets of hershey chocs, played wif my dog kau kau, wen n got stremyx, planned the sleepover, watched 110 episodes of naruto, wrote sum songs, poems, refreshed my memory of a few movies, played bball, sat thru d 6 hour lecture for my L lisence n alot of other things, all in the past 15 dayz...not bad, cud hav done more tho, haha..last weekend my whole family wen to pD..here r sum pics...

The view from my hotel room

The beach!!!

Haha, ice cream man goin about d beach..bought sum 4 my bro n sisters..

Oh pD, ur "CLEAN CLEAN" water makes me so happy...lolz

Brings back memories eh xZ, Jo Wee???....lolz

A group of rocks by the beach like a hidden cove during low tide..

The sunset on the 1st day..relaxing...

Nxt morning..cudnt wake up to take the sunrise...haiz

The sky was so blue..with the sound of waves rolling in the background...ahhh!!!, i miss the sea..

Aahh!!!...d super sedap goo bak mee/ ngau lam fun'/ngau kee' from King's reataurant..ate on the way back..didnt eat in this shop for like 3 years adi, now the price is 8 bucks 4 one big bowl...cipanz, but delicious all the same...mmmmm...

haha, my dog hav to wear this for like a week i think..he kena sum kind of fungus kua...but he still looks giler cute...lolz

haiz took like 2 hours to upload all dis..lazy to upload anymore..i miss the sea definately..haiz.ciaoz ppl...

FREEDOM!!!!!....wahhahahahhahhhaha....

2006-04-21T12:06:00.000+08:00

YES!!!..its OVER!!!..still abit stiff n very fatigued after the adrenaline rush dat lasted for 3 hours..rushed till the last min..wahahhahhha, cant contain myself any longer, time to set free!!!..gotta go back n get sum rest, didnt slp much yestaday, was being a nerd through and through..AFTER i play summore 1st hahahhhahha..cant wait 4 yf 2day, smksu's easter rally is 2moro..Chin Hui!!!, hahhahahhahha..get sum earplugs ready, lolz..anime to catch up on, comics galore, novel to complete, songs to create, n most of all time to laze!!!, hahha..haiz gotta go play bball adi...didnt play 4 a month liao, flabs appearing, lolz..haiz, if d form 4 me met me 2day this is was he would most prob say, "Dang, you've really become fat, go play ball la!, what lazy???, Don't make me go there n lempang u i tell u...still dowan to go ar???, where's d lembing???"..haha, i've really got to stop liao, getting delusional, lolz..ciaoz...

*edited this post like for the fourth time adi, so if got any more errors, pls excuse me...i lazy to edit summore....

1 more...1 more..I will survive tat-tat-tatata...haiz..

2006-04-19T12:09:00.000+08:00

1 more, 1 more, 1 more to go!!!!!..then its hols till may 9th!!!...haha...2 weeks of fun n lazing around, lolz...but 4 d nxt 2 dayz muz b extra nerdy coz d last paper is MATHS!!!, Bobby's paper(d lady teacher wif d humongus muscles....)..goin to do maths day n nite..umm, well not 2nite though, got wed nite prayer meeting..come come...ciaoz...

2 more!!!!!....muahahahhahhhahhhaha!!!!!...

2006-04-18T12:01:00.000+08:00

Yes!!!..only 2 more exam papers to go..three more dayz to FREEDOM!!!..hahaha..only two more..yes two more..the two most hardest subs this semester..shikidi..haiz..ciaoz..

Easter week....

2006-04-17T15:28:00.000+08:00

What a week..studied d whole week at home..think dat was boring???..nope..coz there were alwayz d "fun" of resisting temptations, lolz..tv, comics, novels, anime, the fun never ends, hehehe..managed 2 resist most of them, thk u Jesus..ate alot of chocs this week..finish a big packet of hershey cookies n cream by myself, in one day, then it was cadbury choc wif raisins in them, taste like rum n raisin ice cream..in sync with my choc fest, i had a craving 4 potatoe chips, so ate like a packet a day..indulging week, lolz..then due to my unhealthy eating habits n d irregular times of my meals I got a nice painful present..stomach flu, haha..i dun wan 2 explain wat it is (go ask your mom or sumthing) but I can guarantee u dat getting LS (lao sai) is much much much better than stomach flu..haha, with LS u can at least get release sitting on the throne but stomach flu d pain never goes away even if u did sum business..haiz, so wen to the doc n he gave me a medicine dat tastes like chalk n d smell is enuf to make u gag n vomit..d worst tasting n smelling med I've ever took in my entire life..so the morale of the story is eat regularly n healthily, haha..thx ppl 4 praying for me n thank God he healed me by sat, coz d music prac 4 easter sunday was on sat nite..p&w was great on sun, musicians were great, kid's choir was great, backups too..thx ppl..then on sun evening wanted to play bball, was giler excited coz we were goin to trash sum ppl..or get trashed ourself, haha but it rained..haiz..got another 3 more papers 2 go..cont praying 4 me yea ppl..thx..ciaoz

hectic weeks ahead...

2006-04-10T13:00:00.000+08:00

Jz fin my engineering drawing final exam..gotta study 4 another 4 subs, so guess wat im gonna do 4 d nxt whole week..YES, STUDY!!!..haiz..hope dat i will able to resist all temptation, lolz..ppl plz pray dat i will do well in my finals, for good health 2...this week gotta songlead 4 easter sunday also..gotta learn 2 new songs so got my hands kinda full, haha...haiz, well i guess i've got to go now..EXAMS, WHY?????!!!!!!!..haha..ciaoz...

Another weekend....

2006-04-03T12:02:00.000+08:00

Didnt do much dis weekend...on fri nite was so bored..haha, tak biasa coz got no yf..did sum reading tho..on sat practically read d novel im reading n studied 4 d whole day then at nite wen 4 a company dinner in Oriental Restaurant in PJ..then woke up early d next day 4 1st service n stayed on till after CED was over..wen makanz in Kampung Pandan, taipan then wen home n zzzzz..woken up by my dad coz xZ, zX, n cX came n gave me a surprise visit, haha...chatted 4 awhile then decided 2 follow them go eat Harts Chicken Buffet..one of the most dissapointing eating experiences of my life..1st things 1st..wen there n found out d price per head is 2 bucks higher than wat we expected (summore wif rumours of bird flu goin around the price naikz pulakz...SHIKIDI!!!)..nvm nvm, we were ok..so we chose a table, sat down, n wen on our food 'harvesting' expedition, haha...oni 2 end up wif alot of F's ( F#'s, F#minor, F#major...all also got)..2 put it in lay man's terms...THE FOOD SUX!!!!...the white sauce 4 d mash potatoes is tasteless, the onion rings were more like onions fried in a thin thin thin layer of batter, the soup was like water wif added flavour, the ice cream was horrendous ( the 1st taste of the ice cream was the taste of baby milk then followed by a sour taste..like sumthing expired...the employees claim it was lemon flavoured but please...u think we donno how lemons taste like??? ), the honeydew had the aftertaste of raw chicken, the watermelon had d aftertaste of onions, the apple crumble had the smell of sumthing left in the open 4 2dayz n d best part of it all was that wat i mention earlier made bout 60% of the entire spread they had there...so ppl there's a lesson to b learnt here...NEVER EVER GO TO HART"S CHICKEN BUFFET EVER!!!..ITS NOT WORTH YOUR 16.90 BUCKS...remember yea ppl...wen lepak 4 awhile in pyramid after dat then wen back home..read a comic yestaday nite called The Fishes by Ben...a local comic, real good tho..tragic, sad, makes u think...n so i did..

after sum thinking managed to write this..

Looking back on days gone by,
Pondering on things past,
Remembering all that time has taught,
Realizing that all it taught is true,

That true happiness only comes when one truly loved,
That real pain is felt when one loses it,
That memories will always haunt you,
That loneliness is worse than death.

That true joy is felt only when its shared,
That anger changes a man,
That peace only comes with contentment,
That sadness is always on the brink of our awareness.

That fear is like poison that fills your veins,
That dissapointment is part of life,
That the deepest wounds are caused by the ones we care the most,
That scars can never be healed, only reopened.

That happiness is short lived but sadness lingers,
That things are always taken for granted,
That time waits for no one,
That we have to move on, no matter what.

That hopes and dreams will shatter one day,
That only with determination and focus can one reach their goals,
That wisdom does not come easily to those who seek it,
That we can only take so much in a lifetime.

Despite all of this I will say,
That the lies of time will never sway,
The God and Friend that I hold dear,
For He is the Lord of all, and He's here.......with me....

Not Well....

2006-03-30T13:04:00.000+08:00

Haiz..not well again..it seems every thursday i will hav a bad case of flu..even the class teacher also suspect dat i do dis on purpose..cipanz mr. johnson..newayz the past week has been not only an enjoyable 1 but a fattening one, lolz...last fri, youthz as usual, released the new post camp song, lolz..ps. daniel singh came n spoke bout cults, on wat differentiate us christians from cultist, also on wat different cults believe in as well as where they r situated..an eye opening message no doubt..on sat, wen to church in d morning 2 lead p&w 4 d GCI seminar, all wen well n God's presence came..on sun stayed back after church with jon n kelvin 2 compose the lyrics of the new song 2gether..all of us ended up inspiration-less n bored, lolz, so we left the song at that..had the post camp meeting, the post mortem, discussed bout many issues regarding the camp this year as well as issues pertaining to the yf itself..after dat the fattening began..lolz..the comm. head to sunway 4 steamboat buffet..walau, dat nite the shop really bankrup, lolz..i think my table alone ate bout 5kg of food kua, lolz..serious!!!..after finishing all of us could walk properly, haha...on mon wen 2 class as usual, didn't eat much the whole day bcoz of the food fest last nite, hehe..then d nxt day, hehehe...wen to swensens wif LT,cX, Kross n amiko to eat the famous swensens GIANT EARTHQUAKE!!!...haha, got 50% off summore, ate n ate n ate..then we adjourned to mcD for another round of eating, shikirimasiriantos...then wen 2 carrefour to do sum stuff, errends mostly...yestaday...played piano d whole day ( FYI YES i DO play piano n YES i DO Suck at playing it..LOLZ..) coz i got d chords for most of my favourite christian songs d day b4..so d whole day i was addicted to playing the piano despite my lack of skillz, haha...had a wonderful time of worshiping d Lord the whole day..managed to come out wif a new tune even, haha...then wen 4 prayermeet at nite...i guess i got 2 end here adi, my flu is getting much much worse, gotta go back n sleepz liao...got principles of e & e exam summore ushkirimasantos..pray for me ppl, thx....ciaoz

Commitment, choices, decisions, promises...

2006-03-23T13:59:00.000+08:00

Haiz..not feeling myself 2day..did alot of thinking yestaday nite after prayer meet..bout past, present and future..thinkin of all the promises I've made, all the commitments that I chose to take upon myself, all the past decisions n its consequences, as well as new commitments n decisions that I've got 2 make 2 make me a better person, emotionally, spiritually, even education wise..not knowing fully whether d choices made were the right one..only fully trusting Him and putting all my faith in Him, no matter how small it is..pressure piling, stress ever straining, but God will make it better God will help no matter what..just believe in Him..looking forward to yf this week tho..real excited over the release of our own post camp song..ps Daniel is comin over also..so im looking forward 2 a wonderful time of p&w as well as a wonderful time of hearing the word of God..youthz, come with your hearts open, come with the expectation that He will speak to you..come no matter what..even if ur sick...if you honour Him by comin even tho ur sick, I believe He will honour you back and heal you of ur sicknesses as you walk in...so COME!!!...haha..ciaoz...

wrote this yestaday:

You were there...

Pressures of the world presses in around me,
Seeking to dishearten, to destroy,
My soul is tired, my heart aches,
But You were there to catch me, You were there to pick me up.

When I looked back, back to the times where things seem bleak,
When all seemed lost and all seemed like falling apart,
Confusion consumed me , distorting all judgement and thoughts,
But You were there to guide me, You were there to show the way.

At times when I failed, with all hope gone,
At times when I falter, my faith shaken to the core,
I felt like giving up, felt like surrendering all,
But You were there to comfort me, You were there to give me hope.

When fear took me and rendered me useless,
When it gripped my heart and pulled me under,
I struggled and fought, with no avail,
Yet You were there to protect me, You were there to give me strength.

I hope that You would never go away,
Never leaving me, never forsaking me,
Being with me always so that I may say,
I will be there for You, just as you've been there for me, always.

Post Camp Blues...

2006-03-17T10:45:00.000+08:00

Hehe,yea i'll admit it..i miss camp, dun we all???..newayz kinda sick rite now..hav a bad flu, slight sorethroat, headache and a little cough, got c++ programming test later summore..haiz..d sorethroat i kena ever since d last nite of camp..n d flu n cough i got it from eating nearly a whole tub of choc ice cream,haha..super smart,lolz..newayz, d last few dayz was great..managed 2 get closer 2 God, renew promises n commitments, surrendered all 2 Him..had a wonderful time praising n worshiping Him, a wonderful time hearing the word of God..not 2 mention a wonderful time torturing ppl, lolz..nah, it wasn't so bad rite ppl???..haha, 2 me it wasn't, lolz..on d last nite of camp had a nice talk with a few ppl on the end times, spirits n stuff..haha, sum of the gurls had 2 share beds dat nite..was it really dat scary???..i noe the CIV wasn't, LOLZ!!!..haha..me mom's b'day 2day, surprised her with a book yestaday nite as her b'day present..hehe, she really really wasn't expecting dat..newayz, had fun d last few dayz n i hope dat u Youthz will cont 2 b fired up 4 God no matter where u r..cont 2 Ushz 4 Him...USHZ!!!..ciaoz

What a week.....

2006-03-10T14:56:00.000+08:00

Let me introduce u to Butter...cute leh???..haha

An interesting week...last week celebrated my B'day, wen 4 a hair cut, had music prac 4 camp, packing, planning and plotting 4 camp, haha, dun worry, we're happy, I dun noe about u guyz tho, haha, newayz hope u guys who r goin 4 da camp enjoy it, we really put alot of effort into da planning...pray pray dat da camp will go smoothly n dat everybody will b touched n hav fun!!!...haiz, I also didn't pack yet...later la, haha...yestaday played wif Butter kau kau...kena bitten on d hand until bleeding tho, play until 2 much adi haha, at least it listens to me now...cipanz the freak storm, make my house no electricity until 2am, had a nice time watching d stars outside chatting wif my sis, didn't managed 2 do my maths homework tho, haha...sori Bobby,i mean teacher, dun pound me wif ur muscles, i promise 2 finish it nxt time (my teacher is a lady wif bigger muscles than me)...haha,finally i'm posting sum pics...

Another pic of Butter...giler lazy at times man this dog...

Haha...I could resist...Juz had 2 put this pic...oh it's my sis Iaina if ur wondering...

My sis wif my 2 cuzzins, Ryan and Clarissa...

Happy Birthday 2 me!!!...lolz...dang i miss my long hair...now look like small kid...haiz..

18....ohh no!!!...old adi....haha..

2006-03-03T13:34:00.000+08:00

I feel OLD!!!,lolz....nah juz jokin...as long as i cont. tarpauing ppl in bball i'm not old....haha...it means dat they're older than me...ss, hehe...watch out all u bballers, haha...newayz yestaday my family had a new addition...so now there's 7 members on my family...n it's name is Butter...it's a labrador retriever...giler cute!!!..haha...pics nxt time la...only bout 3 months old but quite big adi...few more months down d road it will b bigger than me bro...haha...sort of looking forward to this new year of my life...so I'm juz leaving everything 2 God rite now...lazy 2 b worried about it anymore...hehe..nothing else 2 say adi....so ciaoz!!!.....Camp is nxt week...USHZ!!!...the torture, I mean the fun begans!!!....hehehe...

Life ~ a distant promise...

2006-02-28T14:24:00.000+08:00

What was the start of all this?
When did the cogs of fate begin to turn?
Perhaps it is impossible to grasp that answer now,
from deep within the flow of time...

But, for a certainty, back then,
we loved so many, yet hated so much,
we hurt others and were hurt ourselves...

Yet even then, we ran like the wind,
whilst our laughter echoed
under cerulean skies...

-Chrono Cross-

Realizing...

2006-02-24T10:19:00.000+08:00

I've realized dat i mite hav hurt sum ppl through my lamenting n dramatizing n etc etc...hehe...there's alwayz dat possibility...so jz let me say dis...im sorry if i did hurt u, any1 of u, especially u bertha, through my recent posts...i've made alot of mistakes in the past n i guess dat dis was a big mistake as well...starting 2 pick myself up now...dun worry about me ppl...hehe...so sorry again...

Time...

2006-02-21T15:31:00.000+08:00

My fren once wrote in his blog dat life is inversely proportionate to time, which is quite true if u think about it...time, the enemy of all living beings small or big, the ultimate changer, the ultimate destroyer, the thing dat has effected all humans throughout history...including me...but one thing remains the same...dat wat reli matters is now, the present...its not easy tho letting go of the past, wounds dat penetrate till the bone, scars dat act as reminders of bad times, constantly threatening to reopen...no doubt there r gud times, times spend wif frens, times where everything seemed prefect, but as human beings all dis things will fade from our memory faster then the bad ones...a gud proof of dis is wen ppl need photos 2 remind them of the gud memories wherelse enimities, bad things dat ppl hav done 2 us we can remember it 4 a lifetime...ppl say dat time can heal all things but in reality it doesnt, it leaves scars instead of wounds, onli temporal healing...there's a saying, all of us r finding 4 sumthing, searching, looking 4 a 'thing' throughout our short lives that completes us, but onli few will ever find it...true the saying is, but wrong the last part is...coz God is d oni person dat time canot defeat, our guide, our healer, and i believe dat He will show us n give us dat 'thing' in time...till then masks will b worn, the past will b locked in...

Busy this past week, with studies, homework, n yf stuff...yf camp is ever nearing, so got more things to do...having abit of trouble thinking of more 'fun' things to torture, i mean to let the campers hav a 'wonderful' time, haha...food sale on sunday was a success, nearly aquired our target in 1 session...thk u Jesus...hope there will b more ppl signing up 4 d camp...so SIGN UP NOW U PPL OUT THERE!!!..wait...i also didnt sign up yet, hehe...signing up by this week, PROMISE!!!...did i mention dat this sun is da last week of the registration..haha...lazy 2 cont typing adi...abit moody 2day...haiz...ciaoz...

Rain...

2006-02-17T14:30:00.000+08:00

Rained heavily in d evening 4 d last 2 days...u cud call it a massive storm or typhoon by malaysian standards...quite refreshing, the rain...tho depressing also...cudnt play bball on wed wif the gang coz of it...the wind was actually blowing the rain horizontally so the rain rained right instead of raining down, real heavy n strong...so strong until d walls of d surau beside lick hung skool also collapsed, YES!!!...umm..i mean OH NO!!!, lolz...anywayz got my maths test results back n got 5/10...haiz...got lots of careless mistakes n 4 1 question i didnt c d negative sign 4 d equation, resulting in my graph being in the opposite side than d correct ans...did it perfectly right tho jz didnt add the negative...haiz...still happy tho since half d class failed n im not 1 of them, haha...thk u Jesus...had my principles of E&E test yestaday...praying hard dat i do well...gonna hav C++ programming test later at 3..quite confident about this sub but u'll nvr noe wat cud come out...so i guess i gotta end now...ciaoz...

Days passes by........

2006-02-14T15:08:00.000+08:00

Slowly n blurry...like in a dream...dayz passes by like clouds in the sky...camp coming soon, quite excited about it i guess, tho im not sure...feeling kind of numb nowadayz, feeling uninterested in alot of things, n everything is bcoming like a routine...not a gud time in my life i guess, tho ppl may beg 2 differ...coz like there's been 3 new additions to my family in d past 2 week...my new mp3 player, a creative zen neeon, a new gameboy advance sp n d much craved sony psp...i shud b happy n excited i guess but not feeling it...so wat if i hav all of this, it dun matter at all...they're juz things, temporal by nature...im still seaching, looking but not finding the thing dat really matters most, the thing dat is eternal...its starting 2 get tiring, annoying even...in d midst of my test 1 now, studying n preparing myself enough...dun wan 2 repeat d mistake i made last year...hoping dat through the camp i wud b able 2 get rid of sum of this...till then gotta cope wif this....

Ps: I accidentally deleted some of the html code in my blog template, resulting in the magical dissapearance of my c-box n all my links...haizzz...lazy 2 correct it...so jz leave a comment if u all hav anything 2 say...thx...

The past...

2006-02-10T14:31:00.000+08:00

watching school children walking around, secondary students hanging out made me look back in life...all the enjoyable times, all the bad times, in penang, here..it all seems so far away...i cud still remember myself sitting in my room in penang packing, staring at d surroundings of my room 4 d last time, thinking, wondering wat has God hav instore 4 me in kl...remembering how on the last nite i stood at my balcony at nite looking at the sea, breathing in the salty air,hearing the waves rolling in the distance...now 2 years hav passed...time reli flys..in this short time span of 2 years i hav learned more things, felt more things, thought about more things then d rest of my life...at times i wish dat i cud go back to those times again, a simple life where only skool, bball, music, church n friends mattered...when my heart was still whole...its kinda funny how time passes by so fast...leaving scars n wounds as it passes...n d best part is dat it alwayz gets harder every year...

chinese new year..

2006-02-07T12:33:00.000+08:00

well...did nothing much dis new year..skipped coll d fri b4 cny 2 balik kampungz..on d way managed 2 eat goo bak min/ngau lam fun/ngau kei...hehe..reli miss it..then cont d journey 2 johor..met back wif my cuzzins n stuff...didnt reli do much except play ps game,watch movies n tok...did alot of thinkin dis hols,since there wasnt much 2 do newayz...realized much,considered much,found out alot bout myself, n thought out my priorities...managed 2 get alot of anime in jb tho,haha..1st time i c dvd seller giving ang pau...my cuz received 1 n we were all shocked dat there was reli money in there..lifes full of surprises...after staying bout 6 dayz in jb me family made our way 2 kuala pilah in negri sembilan..my moms hometown..got stuck in a very bad traffic jam on d highway 4 bout 1 n a half hours..the car was practically crawling...arrived there safely,d journey took bout 4 hours...haiz..saw my other cuzzins, relatives n stuff..kuala pilah is reli a kampung area n looking at the ppl there,the lifestyle there i can reli c how much God has bless me..heard stories of the old,funny 1's,scary 1's,sad 1's..managed 2 meet 1 of my mom's childhood frens,a old indian man,who doesnt noe how 2 tok wan...not even his own mother tongue but he helped my mom out alot last time,n hearing how he is surviving now reli humbles me..life is real tough 4 them..n yet they're still happy...left d nxt day..headed 4 d goo bak min shop again..but they oni left bee hoon,haiz,oh well...eat oni la...reached back home at 6..

Grandad-
in jb my dad,uncle,2 aunts,inez n me wen 2 visit my grandad's grave..it took us bout an hour 2 get there..n oni stayed there 4 bout 10 mins..wen i was standing infront of the grave i saw my name on d grave as well under d granson part..it was abit funny,i guess, looking at my name on a tombstone..then we prayed..as i heard my father prayed i cud hear the love dat my dad had 4 his father n looking at d faces of my uncle n aunts i cud reli c how much dis person meant to them..a person who i didnt noe but noes me n carried me wen i was a baby..the person who gave me my name, the person who i believe held on till he saw me, bcoz he died 2 months after i was born..to me my grandad is sort of like our Father in heaven..a person who noes me, loves me, n looks after me..a person who i want to noe more about, to have a relationship with..hearing how strong he was, how impacting he was in my dad's life, it reli saddens me dat i wud nvr noe him..but grandad i will try 2 b as strong as u were, as caring as u were, as impacting as u were..i love u too..

Hhhmmmzzzz.....thinkin,wishing,hope-ing,believing...

2006-01-24T14:29:00.000+08:00

Coll startd ad..n it managd 2 distract me from other things..but memories haunts me everywhere I go..emotions treathen to flow..guess I've got 2 b strong,got 2 hold on..but sometimes I jz wan 2 let go, let myself b engulfd in memories n emotions..God, wat hv u instore 4 me?, y muz it b dis way?..I guess all I can do is trust U, n believe dat things will work out..God, I pray dat U wud cont 2 strenghten me, dat U wud protect, bless, use, n help d 1 I love alwayz..amen..things have been ok so far, dayz passing by quickly wif no real significance, filled wif oni homework, music and thoughts..chinese new year is coming but dun feel like celebrating..oni d thoughts of ang pows and good food intrigues me, haha..lots on my mind now, haiz..cant help it..newayz a Happy Chinese New Year! 2 those celebrating, every1 else all Happy Holidayz! n most important of all 2 those already married, Gong Xi Fa Cai,ang pau gia lai!, lolz..ciaoz...

New Year....Haiz...

2005-12-31T00:12:00.000+08:00

yoshz...didnt expect me 2 b able 2 updatez dis early...lolz...newayz da new year is here n its saddenning dat 2005 is comin 2 an end...dis year hav been changing...changing me,da youthz...haiz...lots of gud things happened dis year...n i reli mean GOOD things...y05thz camp,Old Skool nite,Amazing gRace,Basic Life seminar...yes dat was actually gud...Rally,high praise,commitee retreat.....all good...n after all da things dat God has done dis year i still ask....is there more???...r we on da rite track??...wat more hav u instore 4 us God???...hhhhmmmmmzz...alot of end year thinkin has been goin on....n im choosing 2 trust Him....Lots of things r gonna b diff next year...4 gud or 4 worse...but i think He will pull us through...dunno wat 2 write adi so i'll jz leave it like dis....oh!!!....HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!.....n if u need info of da rally on da 14th pls give me a call...

Lonely no longer,the void has been filled...thank u Jesus....

2005-12-15T11:12:00.000+08:00

Hehehe....yea yea yea...i noe i hav been not updating often...ok...alot...lolz...but its not entirely my fault,hehe.....so lately things hav been jz perfect...n not perfect at da same time...feeling sad n happy....really happy...all at da same time....jz leaving it all 2 God...trusting Him alot...hehe,hav been worryin abit 2 much,so i guess i'll jz stop coz its makin me OLD....lolz...guess its all in God's plan...hhhhhmmmmm....dats all i've gotta say now...ciaoz....

Hahahha....a fun day....

2005-10-13T10:12:00.000+08:00

In a good mood right now.....hahha....yestaday was super fun.....morning wen n play bball....Ushz...ok dat wasnt so fun 4 me coz all da skillz sudah karat....hhhaaaiiiiizzzz......gotta train back oni lor.....hahha....played until 10.30 lidat....then wen 2 bathe in me frens place....n chilled 4 awhile tokin wif frens.....then wen 2 pyramid...met new frens....watched a movie.....the longest yard.....giler funny....lolz.....n also geli....b'cos of da bapukz cheerleaders.....ishhh.....after da movie wen back 2 zzzzz.....super tired after bballing.....woke up at bout 5.30 n made my way 2 church......makanz.....then music prac.....shilidi....Lt n jared cam e late so we couldnt prac all da songs.....oni glory....wanted 2 prac more but unc Yang asked us 2 stop 2 pray.....so we did...then we prayed 4 God 2 help us.....2 seriously help us....n He did...thank u Jesus....not even a mess up although we prctically didnt prac.......n we were all flowing a.k.a jiwang....hahha.....ushz....refreshing......hahhhahha......well i guess dats all 4 now.....ciaoz....

Now Right Hand Pain........Hhhhhaaaiiiizzzz

2005-09-26T14:26:00.000+08:00

Hahhha......i seem 2 be oni blogging wen i hav pains hahhhahhhahhhaaa.......newayz.......many things n issues happened lately.......hhhhhmmmmmm......my parents r now in Turkey.....abit da quiet now hehehe.....n my mocks/trial exams is nxt week!!!!!!!!!!!!!.......STUDY IAIN!!!!!.......hhhhaaaaiiiiiizzzzz........this week friday be reminded that there is jamming session at church......so come come.......hhhhmmmm......oh yah.....n 4 all those anonymous fellas who is going around putting the "Matthew lurve Tze Mien thing"........u all got nothing else 2 do izit???.....damn childish lar u all......so much time 2 talk nonsense......hhhhaaaaiiiiizzzzz......play bball also better.....rite Dato Tan???.....haha.....gotta ciaoz now......got class......shikdi how 2 write......right hand pain until canot bend my wrist......ciaoz......

Body Pains.......hahhahaha

2005-08-30T09:49:00.000+08:00

Yupz.......experiencing da sweet body pains dat come after a nice 4 hour long bball session....hahha....i didnt realise how much i missed it.....lol.......hahha.....hav been missing lately lol.....either lazy 2 blog or no time 2 blog.......okok.....so lets recap..........starting from worship conference........wahh.....so long ago......nvm nvm.....da worship conference was great......learned many many good things on worship.........had 2 major heart attacks during da conference though......lol.....1 was wen cL told me dat Jeremy couldnt play 4 rally......hahha.....cX n me prayed about it n God ans our prayers......Joseph was available.......thank u Jesus.......so 1 heart attack stopped......the second 1 came wen cX n I juz got back from da conference.....wen Aunty Irin received a sms from da Chews saying dat Santos couldnt make it 4 da rally........n it da raly was oni 1.....i repeat 1 week away!!!!!.......Ussshhhhzzzzz.......we prayed n God ans our prayers again.....thank u Jesus.......thenext day after da last da of da conference a few of us went to AYA to help to backup n play 4 da FGA Melbourne team......hahha......i guess all of us were quite blur b'cos roughly 3 quaters of da song list r songs dat we DON"T noe......hahhha.....lucky backing up oni......had a great time.......then wen makan at Pe Nang......n zzzzzzzz........on sat rally day......Ushhz......were we all semangatos......wen 2 church at 7.30am.....sat da bus.......had a wonderful time of intercession 4 da rally......after dat wen makan downstairs.....started music practise 4 rally at bout 9.30am.......until 12pm.....lidat.....i think.....wen makan again downstairs.....chicken rice....yum yum......then wen back up 4 a second round of music prac.......until 3pm.....tried 2 sleep 4 awile but zX n cX but bising byk.....singing their instrumental version of wong fei hung......hahhhahha........laughing until canot sleep.......then at bout 5pm went 4 a breif dance prac......hahha.....was very blur during dat time......the spirit was willing but da body said shikidi......lol......then rushed back home 2 take my SideWayz tracks......came back missed dinner....wasn't feeling like eating newayz.....then was "attacked" by gurls.....lol.....Aud wanted 2 tied me hair........hav been pestering me bout it da whole week.......so I gave in in the end......felt like an animal caged up at da zoo.....with all da ppl coming n taking pics of me hair......hhhhhhaaaaaiiiiiizzzzz........by da way.....THX DEKZ.....u did a wonderful job of planning da rally......hahha....sorry i had 2 pass da responsibility of da planning 2 u......THX as well 2 all da ppl who made it happen whether u contributed little or alot......THX......continuing.....went back home n shouted SANTORUS MASINTOS......me whole family was at home from me granddad to me little couzins......all there.....n all got a shock.......hahha.....i didnt take of my corn rolls yet......hhhhaaaaiiiiizzzzz......so had 2 do a little explaining but all was well at the end.......hahha......nxt day wen 4 1st service then left 2 FGA Wangsa Permai 2 lead p&w......hahha.....on da way there SideWayz macam biasa buat lawak je.....hahha.....went there had a wonderful time of p&w despite the fact dat all of us were still tired from da nite b4.......hhhuuuuuuaaaaaaahhhhhh......tired adi.......got meeting wif teacher now also.....so i'll cont nxt time lar.........ciaoz.....

A Beautiful, Relaxing, Stress-Free Weekend.....haha..

2005-08-03T15:43:00.000+08:00

Last sat went 2 Damai Laut situated in PERAK.......yes Perak......not 34.4 sumthing km from Johore, Cax.....haha......newayz.......reached there about 4.30pm+......checked in n wen 2 da swimming pool wif me sisters n bro.......didnt feel like swimming so i went to explore da beach......haha......took alot of pics........but sori now lazy 2 upload......haha.....connection here is super slowwww.........newayz........then wen 4 buffet dinner........not bad da food.....then sleepz.......on sun woke up at 10am........hhhhaaaaaiiiiiizzzzzz......so late......wen 4 breakfast then go swimming.......was in da pool 4 about n hour n a half.....then came out n straight away went to Pangkor island which was opposite Damai Laut.......by boat.......reached there we straight away wen makan........mmmmm.........sedap betui da seafood there....ohlala.....then wen site-seeing around da island.....saw da beautiful beaches, sceneries, buildings n stuff.......saw a potential YIC campsite 4 nxt year.....Ushz.....hav 2 discuss wif da commitee 1st......then came back by boat n head straight 2 da beach......tried trickin 4 awhile at the beach.....frontflip, backflip, hand stands etc.....hahha.....cudden do much......malu malu......lol......got bored after awhile......hhhhaaaaiiiizzzz......takda kaki mah......wat 2 do........newayz.....wen seashell hunting wif my sisters n bro......quite fun also.......then got lazy n juz relax n da sea riding da waves n trying 2 relax.......then went back 2 da room......took a bath....tehn headed out 2 makan seafood again!!!!.....haha......makan lala, prawns, ohh-chien, ikan, wanted 2 eat crab but habis adi....sad sad......i'll pose da pics soon.......haha.....then wen back......took a nice long walk at da beach at nite....thought bout stuff n cleared me mind......wen back n zzzzzzz........then the next day went back to da beach, wen swimming 4 awhile.....then wen back to pack n ciaoz back to kL........hahha.......hands tired adi.......so ciaoz.......

Gotta get rid of it this weekend.......

2005-07-29T14:58:00.000+08:00

Stress!!!!....dats wat i hav gotta get rid of this weekend......stress stress stress......hhhhhaaaaiiiiizzzzz..........newayz this weekend i wont b around........going on a holiday wif me family......2.......damai laut......yupz....dat means da beach!!!!......haha.....didnt get 2 go 2 port dickson da last time........so this has gotta do.......although got no frens there......but i still can relax......hahha....dats wat i need da most.........will oni b back on mon.....dat means im gonna miss da YIC outing.......sad......nvm nvm.....you all go hav a great time ok????.....i'll join u all da nxt time....haha.......ciaoz

P.S: HaPpy B!r+hD@y 2 Yi Wei , Tze Mien and John!!!........May God Be Wif u All ALWAYZ!!!

A HECTIC weekend......

2005-07-26T11:10:00.000+08:00

hhhhhmmmm.....throughout the last weekend everything was rushed......hhhhaaaaiiiiizzzzzz......on thurs.....started the IS project which was due on mon....we had to create a database as well as manuals and the texts for the database......yupz......we rushed alrite.....then on fri......cont. wif da database.......sat infront of da com trying to figure out microsoft access......4 5 hours!!!!!!!!.......dang.......then at nite.....help me mom to clear up the house 4 da YA pot bless on sat......sat morn.....went to coll at 8.15am......8.30 cont wif da database........ended at 1.30.......managed to fin da database but still had da manuals and da texts.......sad........took over the shop from 2-5.30pm........sat there dreaming away oni....lol......then had a food scare at the YA pot bless.......there was enuff food there to do hospitality in church 4 3 weeks......even un. Stephen n aunty Irin got scared......lol.......then kW,Cax,zX,Daniel,Benjamin,Lydia( correct anot da name???......sori), Gavan,Joe,me dad n obviously me, went to play pool and foosball at ar........uuuummmmm......hhhhmmmm......4got da name of dat place adi.....lol......reached back home at 12.40am......haha....had a great time......then zzzzzzzzzzzz..........on sun.....lol......couldnt wake up 4 1st service.......joined da YIC Rally meeting 4 awhile.........during da meeting there was alot of outside disturbances........more info at Pei Yi's blog........very sweat wan da story.......haha.....but they were laughing b'cos of another thing.....not b'cos of my long hair.......wen n investigate adi....lol.......then went back home 4 lunch......alot of food from the pot bless.......then went to the all level leadership meeting at 5pm......after that to pyramid.......haha.....got a bad n good thing happened there.....the good thing.....i got a pair of new specs......haha.....me old wan sudah berkarat sampai nipis.....lol.....the bad thing.....me sandals broke/tore/came off/spoiled......take ur pick........went back home n cont on da database manual n texts......until 2am.....then nxt daywoke up at 6.30am......4 hours of sleep oni.....yawn........wen to coll.......and cont the database manual..........rushed n rushed like shit until 5pm.........after passing da project up it was already 6pm.........hhhhhaaaaiiiizzz..........today.........later got maths test.......sad sad.......hav to study now........ciaoz.....

In Loving Memory Of My Sandals........I Will Miss You And Cherish The 3 Years Dat We've Been 2gether...........Thx 4 The Service Dat You Hav Given Me..........LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hhhhuuuuuuaaaaaahhhhh.......halal......lol...

2005-07-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

hhhhmmmm.....da past week i was abit da lazy 2 blog lar......lol.......newayz......last fri OPM!!!.....hebat hebat.......we all had a wonderful time worshipping God for about 2 hours non-stop and at the end we ended wif 1 way at 1am......hehe......siok......Ushz......da turn up 4 y05tHz was 18 ppl oni......sad lar......we got like wat 40 ppl???......sad......haha.....on sat.......zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......haha.......couldnt tahan from yestaday nite........lol.......in the afternoon went to pyramid 2 lepak wif me family.........ei???......dat reminds me........SHIKIDI!!!!! i still didnt c initial d yet.......sad sad.....life is unfair.....lol.....now fantastic 4 come out adi.......hhhhaaaaiiiizzzz........nvm.......on sun......went 4 1st service.......haha.....i actually tied up my hair........walked into da church 2 c un Stephen n aunty Irin waiting 4 me at the front door........so u noe wat happened nxt........haha....4 those lucky ones dat managed 2 c me wif tied hair haha how i look ar???........hensem kar???........lol........went 4 y05tHz rally comm. meeting then went makan wif kT n Dekz at maju......haha....tertinggal Cax......then went to pyramid wif Cax n kT to go fix Cax's camera.......then went home n do chores..........then at 2pm........shikidi.......it started raining......hhhhaaaiiiizzzz.......suppose 2 play bball wan.......but haha.....still went 2 play at the end wif me sis,Vincent,Cax,kT,zX,Sherman,Samuel Chew n Jo Wee.......then played wif some malay fellas.......hhhaaaiiiizzzz........kena tarpau......was damn pissed at their attitude.......but dun care lar.......train back n tarpau them nxt time oni lor.......hehe.......soon soon rite zX???..........then wen 4 dinner at parade then wen home n zzzzzzzzz........hhhaaaiiiizzzz......tired adi lar.......havent recover from yestaday........hhhhhuuuuuuaaaaahhhhhhh*yawns*.......ciaoz 1st........

P.S:tried to beat chris's n barry's blog but lazy lar........their posts 2 long adi.......lol........

kkkkeeerraaaakkk.....aaaahhhhh......da pain......

2005-07-07T16:14:00.000+08:00

Me body now is veli pain still haha........on tues wen to play bball for da 1st time in like wat 2 months summore play 4 5 hours........damn sad.......da 1st ball i throw also air ball adi.......hhhhaaaiiiizzzz.......stamina also gone n shooting like shit.........sad sad........must train back adi.......newayz yestaday wen 4 prayer meeting.......n yes i was da oni y05tHz there again......nvm nvm......but the speaher was a person from Hong Kong n his message was good......glad i didnt miss it........haha.....cant wait 4 NLG this weekend........hhhhaaaiiiizzzz......nothing 2 tok about adi........ciaoz.....

What a weekend........ushz!!!.....

2005-07-04T15:12:00.000+08:00

Ushz.......last weekend was ushz.......okok.....on fri......sang new song and ps Daniel Singh came to preach......hahhaa.....giler funny da fella......but wat he says was completely true and it has challenge me to be a better Christian.......then on sat.......zzzzzzz......at 3pm went to play DOTA in warnet X wif Jerome,my friend dat juz came back from Russia for da holidayz........hhhhaaaaiiiizzzzz....actually we wanted 2 play bball wan......but then da sky looked like it wanted 2 rain.......sssssooooo.....we didnt play bbal instead went 2 play Dota......hahhaa.....but it was fun.........managed to loosen up n release stress......then on sun.....wen 4 1st service.......a team from FGA motherchurch came 2 songlead p&w 4 both sessions.......hehehe......hebat.......they also came to promote the worship conference which is gonna b held at FGA motherchurch........hahahha......ushz....im going......can wait......then left church at 12pm 2 cheer 2005......hahaha.......was amaze at the art of cheerleading.......the coordination n energy needed 4 cheerleading........but couldnt stand the "perky-ness".........lol.......
then after cheer when to eat at melur 19 wif kT,cX,kW,Daniel n me sis........then went home n watch Hillsongs live worship vcd titled Hope.......also watched da united-more than life vcd.......hahaha.......giler cun......wanna b as ushz as them.........nvm nvm.....comin soon......lol......ciaoz......

Planet Shaking!!!!!!.......haha........

2005-07-01T09:16:00.000+08:00

Yes.......its friday!!!!....haha......to day Ps. Daniel is coming 2 y05tHz.......so make sure ur gonna b there!!!!!.......haha.......2 day were gonna teach him wat is Ushz!!!!......lol.......when p&w he's gonna jump wif us........n wen he does planet shaking occurs.......lol......newayz......c u all there!!!!.....ciaoz....

The terror within.......

2005-06-30T16:13:00.000+08:00

Fear.......dats wat it is........a terror within........personally fear is 1 of the things dat is the hardest 4 me to face.......in the past fear cause some really bad events and memories in me life......and now its back......haunting me......it has no true form......it comes as silent as the night........n until u realize wat its doin to u.......ure gone.........hehe.....but as the saying goes fear is oni within u..........so to overcome fear is to overcome urself........so now i pray dat God will help me overcome me self........

ps.....ppl pls visit our y05tHz blog site at........ushz.blogspot.com........haha

thinkin.........

2005-06-22T16:11:00.000+08:00

haha........ive been doing some thinkin lately.........pondering on wat da future holds and stuff like dat........well so far things aren`t lookin good.........hehe......then i started lookin back on the past where many memories lay.......good or bad.......then i started thinkin wat would happen if i didn`t moved to penang........things would be diff.......yes diff........hahha.......made many mistakes in da past......some hard ones........really hard ones........hhhhhhaaaaaiiiiiiizzzzzz........dowanna think about it anymore............haha.......ciaoz

A day unlike all dayz........

2005-06-21T15:28:00.000+08:00

hhhhhhmmmmm.......wat made this day diff i also dont noe........well 4 1 thing there is an exam later.........die..........well some how 2 day feels diff..........newayz.......updates.......on fri was still feeling sick but wen 4 yo5tHz........then on sat rested 4 da whole day then around 5pm wen to church 4 music prac........dat nite after music prac i was like pls God help me........me voice was like shit........coughing here and there........hhhhhhaaaaaiiiiiizzzzz.......then on sun.......hehehe.....during da 1st service gelabah giler.......until wen singing da 1st song me voice was a bit shaky..........hahahha.......but we suvived.........hahhha......thank u Jesus........well gotta go study now.........ciaoz.......

At last!!!!!!.......im FREE!!!!!......cough.....

2005-06-16T12:51:00.000+08:00

Im back........thank God........well da last 3 dayz was not very enjoyable 4 me.......ok.......it sucked.....i had high fever dat goes up n down, cough, flu,n recently sorethroat......well now the oni thing left is the sorethroat and slight cough..........in the last 3 dayz time took its time to pass......slowly......n i really mean slowly.........newayz enuff of the last 3 dayz.......now lets start......on fri.....wen to church at 10am.....started printing n packing out da clues for Amazing gRace with Cax,kT,cL,Jade and Chris......then at about 2pm lidat wen to Taipan to search 4 the answers 4 da questions.............wen back to church around 5pm n continued wif the tokens and other touch ups.......then at 8pm was the stationmasters briefing........the meeting ended at about 10pm......then we found out dat there was some problems in da clues so we quickly sorted the problem out n left at about 11.30pm.......Ushz......tiring.....the on Sat.....7.30am......had a short briefing again 4 the stationmasters then wen down at 8am 4 da participants briefing......flaged off da racers then wen in to makan me nasi lemak.........the atmosphere in the home base was surprisingly tensed......all da aunties were like freakin out when ever there was a phone call or a sms......hahahaha......then aunty Serin n me left with Un. Stan G. to the ktm station........on da way we saw some groups fishin at the bus stop......hahahaha......all of us were laughing......ahhahahaha....giler funny.......the wen we arrived we saw kW,Cax and Chris there wif some of the racers.....hahaha......all really semangat man the racers......good good.....bought 2 train tickets 2 shah alam and waited 4 da train........wen we reached there we searched 4 a good place to set up the station.....and im sure u all noe where it is by now......hehe......but we reached there abit 2 early.....actually.......it wasnt abit....it was 2 hours early........hhhhhhaaaaaiiiiiiizzzzzz...........so we waited and waited......while waiting Aunty Serin was playing wif her good frens.......the WORMS.......cax and i couldnt believe our eyes......she was actually diiging through the worms and pickin them up and letting them crawl all over her hand......ill post the pics nxt time........then finally da 1st group arrived.......and so on and so forth.......hhhhhmmmmm......being a stationmaster izin easy........da waiting is usually da worst part.......so total time spent sitting beside the longkang was 5 hours.......yup FIVE hours.....haha.....couldnt feel me ass after dat......hhhhaaaaiiiizzzz......tired adi.......okok....ciaoz

Work work work........so sad......

2005-06-08T14:46:00.000+08:00

Hhhaaaaaiiiiiiiizzzzzzzz............lots of work 2 do.......sum i like doing sum i dont........but all hav 2 fin also........so no diff......newayz......2 day's wed so ppl pls come 4 prayer meeting 2 pray 4 this sat.......so dat it will go smoothly and everybody will hav loads of fun.......hahaha.....cant wait.......hhhhhhaaaaaiiiiiiiizzzzzzz........gotta get back 2 work.......

Amazing gRace..........its near!!!!!......

2005-06-06T14:52:00.000+08:00

hahaha....da last week was cun.........in a way........quite boring but insightful.......haha.......learn alot of things from da Basic Life Seminar.........it was tiring i can assure u......but worth it.........on sun.....haha......was cun as usual but im abit dissapointed dat da line in front is shrinkin......especially during da sermon.......sad.......haha.....currently typing out da clue 4 Amazing gRace.........hehehe.......it will be fun......to torture u all......muahahahahahahahah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.........newayz gotta end here......got lots of things 2 do.........ciaoz

By da way

Happy Birthday Elizabeth!!!!!!.....May God cont. 2 bless U alwayz......hahahaha....:

Lotus petal cont.........

2005-06-01T15:33:00.000+08:00

okok.....im back.....haha......the seminar is so hebat......no speaker wan.....juz a dvd of da whole.....i repeat WHOLE seminar......so guess how interesting is dat.........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......juz like watching movie.......hahaha........but then surprisingly da aeminar wasn`t dat boring.....b`cos we had 2 fill up a workbook dat each of us hav.......so half da time copying down notes another half dreaming/hearing/toking/eating/drinking/laughing......hahaha......we tok as soft as we can also giler loud adi......haha......wat 2 do???.......the church setting is super cun.....very nice 4 concert.........speakers perfect placing.....da drums fully mic-ed n got drums screen as well......da stage giler big.........but their sitting is like catholic church (wooden benches) n i think they all worship brethren church sytle......b`cos in front of ur seat there`s a thick book.......thicker then da Bible titled......"baptist hymns"..........n da best part........"edition 1975"........shikiri......da age factor was shocking........haha....so we will have 2 survive this 4 another 3 dayz after 2 day........hhhhhaaaaaiiiiizzzzzz..........

Bhuddist hymns cont.....

Over da mountain n under da boddhi tree
Here i am to meditate
Give us clean shaved head, give us pure hearts

hhhhaaaaiiiiizzzz.....cant think of more.....

p.s.-i hope this doesnt offend u ppl........its just a joke......

@SideWayz Productions@

Lotus petal........ohm........lol.....

2005-06-01T09:57:00.000+08:00

hhhmmmm..........coll life is boring compared 2 skool life......less holidayz as well.......hhhhaaaaaiiiiiizzzzzz....c-ing u all skool going fellas having holidayz now i feel very jealous.......wat 2 do????......hav 2 bear it lor.......hahaha......this whole week cax, kT,me n me sis is attending da Basic Life Seminar.......n its.........quite enjoyable so far.......enjoyable not b`cos of da seminar but b`cos of all da jokes n wayz 2 entertain ourselves dat we created.......hahhaa.....da seminar is in First Baptist Church.....a huge church......nice motto 2....."Aflame 4 God n neighbour".......hahaha.....da best part is their neighbour or da building nxt to the church is a lotus "church".......hahaha.....a huge siamese temple......haha......hhhhaaaaiiiiizzzzz........lazy adi lar.......i ciaoz 1st lar....later oni i cont........

Bhuddist hymns......lol

"One Way Nirvana"
"To the West of the Earth"
"All Day Meditation"
"Running After Buddha"
"Still when Meditating"
"Ohm"

@created by kT n rC@

@SideWayz Productions@

Ouch!!!!......sakit sakit.....but happy......haha

2005-05-30T15:28:00.000+08:00

Wwwaaaahhhhhh........me legs very pain.......from jumping 2 much at sj rally n church!!!!!.......hahaha.....da weekend was great.......lets start.......on fri.....morning.....played bball with some indonesians.......hahahaha.....they kena tarpau......Ushz......then at nite.....wen 2 shakey`s.....hahaha.....makan,tok,joke,n makan again.......but da fried chicken giler salty......then on sat......wen for sj rally in da morning.......1st speaker was ps. Julie Khoo......2nd speaker was ps. Daniel Singh......hahaha.....batu pahat......then during da concert da speaker was ps. Kevin Chin.......haha....during all 3 sessions sidewayz core-group was on duty.....haha.....we jumped, Ushz-ed, sang, shout n yatta-ed our hearts out.....lol.....during 1 of da breaks we went out 2 makan at summit n guess wat happen......hahaha......da whole of summit black-out......hahaha......newayz.......after da rally went home n faint on me bed........on sun......still went n jump in da front......hahaha.....semangat betui......Ushz.....then after service wen back home.....in da afternoon couldn`t wake up 2 join eric,ammie,jia wei, n me fren vincent 2 go play bball.......sad.....anywayz if i can wake up also my legs canot tahan........hahaha....so nxt time lar.......well dats about it.......ciaoz.........

Finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..........Da Weekend.......

2005-05-27T14:52:00.000+08:00

Hahahahahahahahah.........its here its here....da weekeand!!!!!!!!!.........hahaha....i noe.......abit da sweat rite...........wat 2 do???.........coll very sienz wan.........haha......2 day gonna go 2 Shakeys wif da y05tHz.....hahaha.......pasti sedap........then on sat......sj rally.........haha.....quite excited leh......hahaha......we`re gonna teach ppl wat is UUUUussssssssshhhhhhhzzzzzz............UUUUuuuuuussssssshhhhhhhhzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.......
ciaoz......

Thank U Jesus........haha....

2005-05-26T15:12:00.000+08:00

hahaha......thank u Jesus.......citrine is ok n back......thxs 4 healing her......haha.......newayz.......cant wait 4 this weekend.....haha.....2 molo y05thz invade shakey`s........makan makan.......then on sat sj rally........sidewayz core-group on duty hahaha.......UUUusssssshhhhhzzzz.......juz noe we`re gonna hav a great time praising da Lord.......UUuuuusussssshhhhhzzzzz..........so come ppl come.........haha.....over n out.........i`ve alwayz wanted to say dat.....lol.....

Ppl......pls pray 4 Citrine!!!!!!!.........

2005-05-24T09:08:00.000+08:00

Pls pray 4 citrine dat she will hav a speedy recovery from da denggi fever.............her current condition is critical........her blood count is low.........may God heal her n give her strength.......dat she can leave da hospital faster n in perfect health...........n continue 2 UUussshhhzzz wif us y05tHz as soon as possible........amen........Hhhhhhaaaaaaiiiiiizzzzzz.......wat a weekend........on fri....nothing 2 do......sat at home n watch t.v.......heard some music.......n played me playstation wif me bro 4 awhile........on sat went 4 da undang lecture.........shikiri.....damn boring......from 9am till 12.30pm da lecturer was talking n talking non-stop.......went thru alot of crapz including a kambing accident illustration.....4 instance......."if a driver drove thru a kampung road n suddenly a kambing came out of no where n.......obviously da driver bangs it whos fault is it????"......n da famous question....."izit da kambings fault or da drivers fault?".......i was like sitting there staring at da lecturer saying.........sweat......then at 12.30pm da fella gave us a 20 min lunch break n there was oni 1.......i repeat......1 makan stall there.......n there was 60 ppl lidat rushing out of da lecture hall which by da way is a construction container........2 buy food......n da best part is dat we oni finished 1 chapter out of da 6 chapters we r supposed 2 cover......haha.......reached home at 3.30pm......n was damn happy b`cos i survived da ultimate boredom.......haha......on sun.....i was expecting oni a few y05tHz 2 b there but cun there was still enuff ppl 2 form a line haha.....had a great time jumping n praising God......not 2 mention pulling me pants....hhhaaaaiiiizzzz......4 got 2 wear belt again......then wen back home n relax...........on mon......nothing much......wen 2 mid-valley in da afternoon......reached back home at nite.......then zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..............hahaha.....dats all.......

Family Camp Today!!!!!!!!!!!!........but.....im not going.........sweat.....

2005-05-20T13:45:00.000+08:00

Hhhhaaaaaaiiiiizzzzzz..........for all those who r reading this from 2 day till sunday afternoon means your not going for da camp 2!!!!.....hahaha......sama geng......hehehe.........boring-nya........no y05tHz 2 day.........2 molo going 4 undang lecture.........i think.......then on sunday.......i`ll b da oni 1 kua dat will be jumping infront......unless U all JOIN me.......haha........so i guess i will hav 2 find a alternerd......sori alternate way 2 spend me weekend.....oh......may God bless those who went or is going 4 da camp.........dat they may be touched n changed.....hahaha......oh yah......n come back safely 2 with-OUT injuries........ciaoz......hav a great time there.....UUUuuussssssshhhhhhzzzzzzz...........

Uuusssshhhhzzzzz..........

2005-05-19T16:32:00.000+08:00

feeling da same..........not even excited 4 star wars..........hhhhhhhmmmmmmm............dis weekend is gonna b a boring 1........no y05tHz.......all gone 4 family camp.......nvrmind.......i will survive.......hahaha......self sympathy........really absorbing hahaha........newayz.....ciaoz

Same old same old........

2005-05-18T15:28:00.000+08:00

Hhhhaaaaiiiiiizzzzzzz..........da day passes like every other day does.........hhhhhhmmmmm..........oh ya ..........Announcement: We need more ppl 2 join da Amazing gRace..........hurry hurry.........fill in da forms n hand it in.......da forms r wif Cax......limited 2 oni 10 teams......so hurry hurry hurry.......early birds will receive 1 free tanduri bird.........courtesy of majau-majau.........hahaha....samarindz..........2 day wed prayer meeting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........hahaha............UUuuuuuusssssshhhhhhhzzzzzzz....................

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2005-05-17T09:47:00.000+08:00

yestady was a bad day........test results came back........didn`t do dat well.......so da teen phase continues........hhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiihhhhhhhzzzzzz............on fri y05tHz was great.......managed 2 sing alwayz n 4ever.......then on sat songlead 4 cpc.........haha i nvr seen da children so Uuuussssshhhhzzzzz b4.........then at nite when n play futsol wif sidewayz, jared n dektos.....hahaha.....me first time playing........not bad.......had a blast.......we played wif SIB church......there "youth"........all also about ep`s age.......badan pun besar.....then on sunday......wen 4 1st service n 2nd.........wen back home after church n ko..........4.30 left 4 church 4 da all level leaders meeting..........then wen home........hhhhhmmmmm...........so dats all there is there isn`t anymore (adapted from Madeline)........sweat.......

Aaaaarrrrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhh...................

2005-05-12T15:28:00.000+08:00

when is this gonna go away????.........me body feels heavy, eyes constantly staring at nothing, attention span less den 5 mins, no appetite, no aware of me surroundings........hhhhhhmmmmmm if play bball sure kena whack by da ball a few times wan......hehe......newayz.........wed prayer meeting yestaday........biasa lar.......Hhhhhhhaaaaaiiiiiiihhhhhhzzzzzzzz.............then 2 day nothing much happen.......at least dats wat i felt.........hhhhhhhhmmmmmmmm...............nothing else 2 say......sssssoooooo........ciaoz

Confused.......(@_@)*.........

2005-05-11T12:43:00.000+08:00

Hhhhaaaaaiiiihhhhhhhzzzzz..........nowadayz feeling very confused n blur........must b 1 of those teen stages i`ve heard about.............not oni confused n blur but lethargic (meaning lazy n tired) as well as numb 2 da world.........sort of.........so fast got assignment adi.......n there`s still an exam on hold.......da oni thing im looking 4ward 2 is amazing gRace.........anywayz y05tHz pls try 2 make it 4 da wed nite prayer meet........im kinda lazy 2 keep on pestering u guys 2 come.......like some sort of......i don`t noe.....so i`ll leave it 2 u all.......its between u n God.......ciaoz

Yoshz.......hhhaaaaaiiihhhzzzz.....long time nvr on9 adi.....

2005-05-09T09:37:00.000+08:00

Wwaaahhhh........finally i can on9 again........hhhhmmmmm......okok.....let`s start from me 2 weeks holiday.......ummmm......ok......me frens from penang came......there was da old skool nite.....very cun.......but the turn up was a bit dissapointing.....must b da timing.....then coll started again.......2nd term......then on friday me coll course had our games day........the games was not bad.......played da station game but it was definitely worse than y05tHz camp wan.......wasn`t tired at all at the end until we had the tug of war........da biggest cipan in my group didn`t wan 2 be the anchor (the last person in a tug of war) so i terpaksa b lor.........UUuuuuuusssssshhhhzzzz.....didn`t noe tug of war was dat hard......especially being da anchor.........after da tug of war terus ko.......legs were shaking.......then collapse on da field......haha eat also hands shaking.........couldn`t hold da spoon properly........then wen 4 y05tHz......it was like powder-ful.......everybody semangat......bagui bagui......then on sat had da amazing gRace meeting......hehehe.......its gonna b fun (evil sneer).......the on sun......Mother`s Day.........p&w was cun all da y05tHz was in front.......haha......stayed on 4 2nd service......it was lagi Uuuusssssshhhhhzzzz........then wen 2 ikea wif me family.......didn`t noe they got so much stamina wen shopping.......i also wan 2 ko adi.........after dat wen 2 me aunt`s house 4 bbQ.....thenwen home n zzzzzzzzzzzz........dats about it......quite long leh......hahha...ciaoz

Happy Birthday Jade n Citrine.....MERDEKA MERDEKA!!!!!......

2005-04-27T16:49:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday 2 da Ho sisters.....haha......MERDEKA MERDEKA MERDEKA!!!!!!!!!!......exams juz over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..................
UUUuuuuuuuuuuuusssssssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........santoz.....haha..........
Holiday is here.......holiday is here.....lalalalalalalala.......haha 2 happy adi.......newayz......2 day got wed nite prayer meeting!!!!!......hope THIS time more y05tHz will come.........haha....2 day will sleepz......the 2 molo.....ooohhh sori.....was juz planning wat i will be doing 4 da holidayz......haha........so i will stop here.......uuuuussssshhhhzzzz.......back 2 planning........

HaPpY BirThDay Jon!!!!!........

2005-04-26T15:40:00.000+08:00

Haha.......another birthday......hhhhhmmmmm........makes me think about how fast life is passing us by........so fast 17 years old adi........rite Jon???.........i feel old.........newayz.......studying again 2 day.........da exams is 2molo adi......AAAaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!......the horror, the HORROR!!!!..........but then after dat......MERDEKA!!!!......haha.......Uuuussssshhhhzzzz.......can`t wait 4 dat............hhhhhhmmmmmm have been doing a research on freedom.......so far......doing quite well......managed 2 learn alot n it makes me think more as well.........a bit 2 much though......haha.........oh ya.........Xz i agree with u!!!!.......Mr. Eric Tan is da best poet in da world.......haha......buaya.......Uuuussssssshhhhhhhzzzzzz........

Hhhuuuuuwwwwaaaahhhhh.....*yawns.......

2005-04-25T15:23:00.000+08:00

Hhhhhaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiizzzzzzzz.........boring lar.........exams coming adi.......on wed.......tried to study......but it feels like the sand man is out to get me........alwayz feel sleepyz.......zzzzz......gotta break this habit adi......hhhhuuuuuuuaaaaaaahhhhhh.....*yawns........can wait 4 wed 2 end......then its merdeka 4 a whole week!!!!!.........but b4 u can enjoy there`s alwayz a road block......u juz hav 2 overcome it......aisey.......i dunno wat im writing about.......grogy adi......brain also not functioning properly.......so i better stop......oh ya b4 i go........remember ar.......old skool nite is this sat nite......be there.....or be there......haihz blur adi.....

Santoz SANTOZ!!!!!!.........

2005-04-23T09:15:00.000+08:00

Haha.....y05tHz yestaday was cun.......Santoz came and gave away a free Hillsongs album.....the LATEST wan.....Alwayz and Forever.......haha....thk U Jesus 4 allowing me voice 2 tahan yestaday.......it was cracking adi.......newayz......on WEDNESDAY.........oni 6 y05tHz came!!!!!......wat is this???!!!!!!!.....nxt day was a holiday dun give me funny excuses......HHhhhhaaaaaaiiiiiiiizzzzzzz.......especially y05tHz commitee memders.......dissapointed lar saya..........then on thursday.......all i did was zzzzzzzzzz.......n clean house........sienz........the on friday got eng term exam.....hav 2 write 4 2 and a half pages long essays in 3 hours........my hands was pain.......even me ass was pain after da exam.....sit down 2 long adi.......HHHHHhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzzz.........got LAN exam in 10 minutes time.........40 objective questions and they ask us 2 come on sat........sssssttttttiiiiiiiiiuuuuuuppppppppiiiiiidddddd people......wat 2 do.......gotta go liao.....ciaozzzzzz........

A Lucky Day.......haha....

2005-04-20T14:03:00.000+08:00

Waahhhh.......2 day nearly got banged by a truck.....thk u Jesus....then when i reached coll i found out that im able 2 take my LAN exam......hahaha.....i`ve been skipping a few classes of LAN......thank u jeremy, esther n voon han 4 marking my attendance 4 me........haha.........small kids dun follow ar.........haha.......newayz......gotta go 4 physics......getting back our topical test paper back.......hope dat God will cont. 2 bless me.......Oh Ya.......n i hope this time i will c at least 10 y05tHz at church 2 day 4 da wed night prayer meeting......ciaoz

hahahaha....hohohohoh.....hehehehe.....crazy adi....

2005-04-19T16:26:00.000+08:00

basket.....term exam comin adi.......shikiri......JESUS SOZO ME!!!!!!!!..........HHhhhhaaaaaaiiiiiizzzzzz........last week NLG was damn cun......UUUuuummmmm..........dunno wat else 2 say........Oh ya.......yestaday in eng class we were discussing about how childhood 2 day is so much diff than childhood during our time.........then i started thinking of wat i used 2 do during my super iain dayz......HHHHHhhhhmmmmmmm.......there was pepsi cola (if any of u noe wat im toking about)......n ice n water......there was using da sling shot to target prac da school windows......there was catching tadpoles in da monsoon drain.......haha Xz remeber anot???......there was shitting in da drain......OOoppppppssssss.........dat wan was 2 much........hehehe........so 2 sum it up my childhood was a perfectly NORMAL n enjoyable time of my life........ssssooooooo how was urs??????........think about it.......

NLG NLG NLG!!!!!!!!........

2005-04-15T14:35:00.000+08:00

hahah......da weekend is here......juz prac me eng play again.....haha......laugh till me stomache ache.......newayz.....can`t wait 2 go 4 y05tHz 2 nite........got 1 more class 2 go......n i`m LATE!!!!!!!!!.....so ciaoz ciaoz......aaaaahhhhhhh late ar!!!!!!!!.............

Basket.........

2005-04-14T16:50:00.000+08:00

Wah Lau wei!!!!!!!!!........y so malang wan..........i wan 2 leave from coll adi then suddenly.........rain..........Rain Down on me!!!........Rain Down on me!!!!..........but after i get on da bus..........haha........wat 2 do .......so gotta wait lor..........sienz..........Hhhhhhhaaaaaaaiiiiiiiizzzzzzzz............shikiri.......

Hahahaha.......

2005-04-14T13:46:00.000+08:00

Hahahhahaha.......yestaday.....Cax n i were planning 4 da y05tHz Amazing gRace......Uuuuussssshhhhhzzzzz u all r gonna suffer......i mean luv it......so cun le.........newayz.....while i was eating at melur with me dad n sis.....guess who i saw there......haha....ps. Julie Khoo....she was there with me fren amanda eating.......so said some helo....then dats it.....went back 2 zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...........then this morning.......woke up.......eng class was cancelled....sooo....me group practised our eng play........HHHhhhhhaaaaiiiizzzz.........have 2 act damn geek wei this sat.....b`cos me role is the nerd role.......haha.........then jeng jeng.......calculus test........seriously i hav no comment...........later going 2 church.......i`ve juz found out from kT dat aunty Grace juz past away...........i knew her since young...........real sad ain`t it..........well..........dats all 4 2 day........

GOOD BYE AUNTY GRACE......MAY GOD`S HAND GUIDE U ALWAYZ....AMEN........

Life.......

2005-04-13T13:26:00.000+08:00

Life......Wat is Life???......I`ve been thinking about it n i realised dat life is not complex.......its juz different 4 every1 of us.......its juz dat every 1 of us go through different circumstances all at da same time........often times we concerntrate n cooperate on da same things........but not 4 long.......dats y life itself mite juz b da oni link between us.......then i started thinking.......wat in da world am i living 4???.....studying????........working????.........Friends????.......Family???........i asked God......n i think He gave me an answer.........thank u Jesus........i will run 2 u.........nowadayz i feel very stressful.....so many things happening all at once......trying 2 sort out me feelings n stands.........Hhhhhhaaaaaaiiiiiizzzzzzz......im juz plain old tired.........hehehehe........but through this i believe i will grow stronger..........anywayz.........i think this is going a bit 2 deep.....sssssooooo......i`ll stop here.......ciaoz

Still here......

2005-04-12T19:25:00.000+08:00

can u believe it???!!!!!!......im still in college!!!!!.......juz finished my eng play prac n waiting 4 me dad 2 come n fetch me.......sad ain`t it........wat 2 do........i be juz here all alone by myself.....sniff (Mr.Lonely playing in da background).......nvrmind......lazy 2 blog adi.....ciaoz.....

Hhhaaaaiiiizzz.......sienz.....

2005-04-12T13:25:00.000+08:00

Hhhaaaaaiiiizzzzz.......juz realized.......life is very short......so fast mid-april adi.......Hhhahaaaaiiiizzzzz........becoming older........2 much........juz re-registered my subjects 4 me 2nd module......2 term.......everyday study study study.......work work work......sienz........hav 2 re-read me novel...n get ready 4 exams next week..........Uuuuussssshhhhhzzzzz........Jesus!!!!! sozo me (lifts hands up 2 da sky)........haha.......newayz.....nothing else 2 crap about......hhhhhhmmmmmmm........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............

HappY Birthday Keetz!!!...........sozo......haha.....

2005-04-11T13:58:00.000+08:00

If any1 still dunno read da header.......this weekend was ok lar.......y05tHz was interesting.....aunt Soo Ling tok-ed about how 2 speak in public.......she used cipan as a example......haha.......Next day.....when 2 da shop 2 help me mom......then when 2 church 4 dance prac.....after dat Cax n Me discussed about da..........haha...........u all will noe soon......Sunday!!!!......made it in time 4 1st service.............Ps. Julie Khoo from Gt came............she is da youth pastor there...........all y05tHz sat in front on da floor.........Uuuusssshhhhhzzzzz............she was POW-DERFULL....haha....really energetic......she preached about faith......Amanda Quah came with her........she used 2 be me skool mate......sat through 1st n 2nd service then when back home......slllleeeeppppzzzz.....zzzzzzz.......from 2.30 2 6 lidat.....Uuuussssshhhhzzzzz..........then settled some probs n dat was it............all in a day work.........ciaoz.......haha